Silly question that's been bugging me for 2 years now

[MadelineB]

Diary of a Mad Timetraveler, Day -13241:
I grow increasingly frustrated by my discoveries. Have tried every permutation of using published results of random or near random events and am growing old trying to make a single score.

I found the paradox today. What an idiot I have been. Let's just talk lottery. I assumed that the published result of a winning number meant that I could go back and select that, and the result would be when I got back to my own time that I would have shared the win with the person who was published as the winnner. That's where I went wrong. I am an idiot! For the published numbers to be of any use, the results of random events must be fixed on a given timeline and I must be bound to that line. But if that is the case, then so must be the winner; the number and the winner are both descriptors of the winning event. If I have the power to change one, then the other is also subject to change. What I find instead, is whether or not I enter the lottery with my "future knowledge", just my reentry into the time stream at an earlier point, resets my connection to all future points. Random events and chance occurences roll out again, all with different outcomes, and I ride the same ragged blade of chance into my indeterminate future, skipping the number of years on my dial, but never able to escape the burden of chance. Not only do the lotto winners change, but everything else does.

I am a loser for attempting to cheat, for every time that I go back and return, my life has been worse that the first time. For in the strand that my luck and genius were sufficient to put me in possession of a working time device and the talent to operate it, I had been the recipient of a most unlikely stream of good fortune which I mistook for my own prowess and just dessert. I am damned, I am damned, I cannot get them back, one or two but never them all, I cannot get them back, the strand is lost.

I know how to make any amount of money now, not by events subject to randomness, but by determined events that the majority did not predict. BUT WHY DID I NOT REALIZE THAT I WAS THE MOST UNLIKELY OF RESULTS? WHY DID I NOT REALIZE THAT DISTRIBUTIONS RETURN TO THE MEAN? I MISS MY OUTLIERS, I MISS YOU SO MUCH.
-MadelineB, leap 952.

[Jayne]

I have pondered the question that if I go back once then i'd end up going back a million times.

With the power to go back & fix mistakes the temptation & power wouod be too great, just thin about it for a second.
I travel back & somehow convince my parents to let me go on medication to prevent puberty until I can start HRT, I transition & all is good, until...

Let's say there's an earthquake, i've been so preoccupied with transitioning I forgot that thousands died & with my future knowledge I could have stopped that, so I re-build the time machine & go back.
This time a plane crashes but I can't live with the knowledge so I travel back once more.
On this journey I warn people about the earthquake & the plane crash but a little child is killed crossing the road, the flowers & tributes haunt me as I pass them each day so back I go again.
This time I argue with my mum & we don't speak for a long time & the guilt makes me go back.
How long would it be before I spill a coffee on my favourite top & travel back?

[Laura91]

I would not want to be "filthy rich". I believe having that much money changes people, usually not for the better.

I would love to be "filthy rich". I could go all kinds of places and I could help people. Having money doesn't really change people in my opinion. If someone is a selfish jerk the money would just bring that out in them.

[Cindy]

Diary of a Mad Timetraveler, Day -13241:
I grow increasingly frustrated by my discoveries. Have tried every permutation of using published results of random or near random events and am growing old trying to make a single score.

I found the paradox today. What an idiot I have been. Let's just talk lottery. I assumed that the published result of a winning number meant that I could go back and select that, and the result would be when I got back to my own time that I would have shared the win with the person who was published as the winnner. That's where I went wrong. I am an idiot! For the published numbers to be of any use, the results of random events must be fixed on a given timeline and I must be bound to that line. But if that is the case, then so must be the winner; the number and the winner are both descriptors of the winning event. If I have the power to change one, then the other is also subject to change. What I find instead, is whether or not I enter the lottery with my "future knowledge", just my reentry into the time stream at an earlier point, resets my connection to all future points. Random events and chance occurences roll out again, all with different outcomes, and I ride the same ragged blade of chance into my indeterminate future, skipping the number of years on my dial, but never able to escape the burden of chance. Not only do the lotto winners change, but everything else does.

I am a loser for attempting to cheat, for every time that I go back and return, my life has been worse that the first time. For in the strand that my luck and genius were sufficient to put me in possession of a working time device and the talent to operate it, I had been the recipient of a most unlikely stream of good fortune which I mistook for my own prowess and just dessert. I am damned, I am damned, I cannot get them back, one or two but never them all, I cannot get them back, the strand is lost.

I know how to make any amount of money now, not by events subject to randomness, but by determined events that the majority did not predict. BUT WHY DID I NOT REALIZE THAT I WAS THE MOST UNLIKELY OF RESULTS? WHY DID I NOT REALIZE THAT DISTRIBUTIONS RETURN TO THE MEAN? I MISS MY OUTLIERS, I MISS YOU SO MUCH.
-MadelineB, leap 952.

Oh No someone is bringing common sense to my fanatsy

[A]

I'm divided. On one hand, pretty much nothing in my life was worth living that much. Actually, most of my memories are of regret. On the other hand, I met the love of my life recently, and precisely because I'm trans. I met her on Susans, so.

The most logical answer is yes, because then I wouldn't know what I'd miss, and there's a chance I would have found love anyway. But my heart says no, because I would never for a second want to miss the one happiest thing that could happen to me.

In the end, despite the many, many bad things that having been male longer brought me, I say no, because on any scale, my girlfriend will always weigh more than the mountains in comparison.

(Morally, eh; not physically. She's the only one who thinks she's fat.)