Who are the candidates for HRT?

[oOJynxOo]

I've seen my psychiatrist for the first time today, but I was a little bit late due to unable to find location, so the 45 mins session only reduced to about 30 mins. My psychiatrist is still trying to understand my situation, she asked me a question today though but I don't know if that will affect me being a candidate for HRT. The question was asking if I masturbate while cross-dressing, I answered yes while I wear tights and heels.

I just wondered who are the candidates for HRT? Since I'm trying to ask her to diagnose if I have GID (gender identity disorder).
I know sexual orientation has nothing to do with gender identity, but I'm heterosexual male who are attracted to female.  There are a few reasons why I think I have GID...

1) I found facial hair, body hair, muscle mass, deep voice, oily dark and rough skin, body odor unbearable.
While I prefer light color skin, hourglass body shape, smaller proportion of bone structure compare to man.
2) Cross dressing behavior since few years old.
3) Always want to become one of those beautiful girls, they are a role model for me to copy.
4) Only 1 or 2 friends, very quiet, never hang out with friends, low self-esteem.
5) Always choose female character when I play any kind of video game.
6) I'm so jealous that girls are allowed to use make-up but I cannot , it makes me feel depressing every time I see them.
7) I'm pissed when someone say this to me, "You are a man, you are supposed to be physically strong, brave."
I never like to be a leader if there is a group action, I prefer someone else to guide me instead of taking an active role to guide others.
9) I found boys are very hard to deal with, even though I'm a boy, where girls are nicer and friendlier to talk to.
10) No intention to look for a girlfriend, because I just couldn't take the dominant role.

So I really do not want to live as a boy anymore, which category do you guys think I belong to? And do you think my psychiatrist will allow me to go through HRT? Because she said like "If you don't have a support group, it's very hard to proceed."

[Misato]

I had a hard time figuring out if I was trans or if I just really, really liked girls.

But I didn't like getting erect.  Yet while I viewed my penis as something to deal with, it still confused me.  Am I trans or do I have a fetish?

I've since come to think my body was doing its own thing, divorced from my mind and soul. Now as my T gets knocked down by pills, I find I LOVE that I don't have morning wood anymore.  When I get an erection I just ignore it until it goes away.  Shoot, I even take comfort in the "low t" and "ED" commercials.  If I were a man, I'd care about my junk like those gents on tv do!

You were honest with your Dr and so I'm going to give you a big ole' hug for that.  A lot if times I left my therapist thinking, "now I've done it" after i was honest, but here I am on HRT.  Took me a while but I had to be sure.

Good luck on your journey!

[MaidofOrleans]

I've seen my psychiatrist for the first time today, but I was a little bit late due to unable to find location, so the 45 mins session only reduced to about 30 mins. My psychiatrist is still trying to understand my situation, she asked me a question today though but I don't know if that will affect me being a candidate for HRT. The question was asking if I masturbate while cross-dressing, I answered yes while I wear tights and heels.

This could throw up a red flag since it sounds like transvestic fetishism which is not related to GID

I just wondered who are the candidates for HRT? Since I'm trying to ask her to diagnose if I have GID (gender identity disorder).
I know sexual orientation has nothing to do with gender identity, but I'm heterosexual male who are attracted to female.  There are a few reasons why I think I have GID...

Candidates for HRT are people who want to bring their body and mind more in line with the gender they identify with. It's not for everyone and is both risky and a serious commitment. You just said you are a heterosexual male, is that how you feel you identify or are you simply stating what you think you are?

1) I found facial hair, body hair, muscle mass, deep voice, oily dark and rough skin, body odor unbearable.
While I prefer light color skin, hourglass body shape, smaller proportion of bone structure compare to man.

Assuming you are referring to yourself, this could just be a style preference. They also sound very stereotypical. Things like skin color also has nothing to do with gender and not many women sport an hourglass shape.

2) Cross dressing behavior since few years old.

While this is a sign of GID it could be other things. Most cross dressers identify as men that enjoy cross dressing.

3) Always want to become one of those beautiful girls, they are a role model for me to copy.

Again you have to ask yourself whether or not this is a gender identity thing or something else. I myself found myself envious of every cis women simply because they were so and I was not. It has nothing to do with appearance.

4) Only 1 or 2 friends, very quiet, never hang out with friends, low self-esteem.

This could be many things. There are a lot of people that are very introverted, shy, etc. that do not have GID. GID should not be confused with this but can cause this behavior.

5) Always choose female character when I play any kind of video game.

Many men do for various reasons, does not indicate GID

6) I'm so jealous that girls are allowed to use make-up but I cannot , it makes me feel depressing every time I see them.

This sounds more along the line of enjoying feminine style.

7) I'm pissed when someone say this to me, "You are a man, you are supposed to be physically strong, brave."

You sound like you enjoy a more feminine style and behavior so this would obviously upset you. However that statement stereotypes men as well.

I never like to be a leader if there is a group action, I prefer someone else to guide me instead of taking an active role to guide others.

There are many female leaders who are outgoing and assertive while there are men who are submissive followers. This behavior should not be confused with gender identity or gender in general.

9) I found boys are very hard to deal with, even though I'm a boy, where girls are nicer and friendlier to talk to.

You don't sound like you fit into the gender norms of men so you would probably feel more comfortable around most women.

10) No intention to look for a girlfriend, because I just couldn't take the dominant role.

There are women out there who wouldn't mind taking a dominant role in the relationship though they could be hard to find.

I'm not going to say whether or not you have GID or not. Obviously there are a lot of red flags and issues that you should really introspect on and decide if these are really related to your gender identity or not. HRT and transition is a big step and you are your therapist should work on examining each of those issues and decide if its really what you want or whats best for you.