So, I have been seeing a therapist sense I was 11 now, and my mother still has no idea I am transgender. She keeps calling me a lesbian and other BS over the years and fighting with me basically badgering me to tell her what my problem is. I am not at the point yet ((especially with as judgmental as my family is)) to tell her that I am FtM. I have been through many therapists in the past due to my family's bull->-bleeped-<-. Basically what happens, is that I refuse to tell her whats going on and what I need help with because heck I have a therapist for that and the way my family deals with me and treats me only makes problems worse and pushes old issues of suicidal thoughts and such back, and whatever. AND then they force themselves into my appointment basically attacking my therapist and demanding answers which the therapist cant legally even give. Get pissed off, then Refuse to pay for my therapy unless I see someone else because "my therapist makes them look like bad parents"...which honestly they do that on their own :/.
SO anyhow, today my mother and I got in a pretty decent fight over my therapy, resulting in her calling me a lesbian AGAIN in front of my boyfriend, and then telling me that if I dont tell her WHY I need therapy and allowing her to meet with me and my therapist that she will cut off all funding for the therapy ((which face it is too expensive for me to afford on my own right now
)). I am planning on eventually coming out to my family, but NOT like this...I see my therapist again on Thursday the 25th, and my mother is insisting on tagging along and causing crap, telling me that sadly once again if I dont tell her why I "really" need therapy that I am cut off completely this time. What do I do? What do I say? Do I come out to her? Do I let her come in and try to come out to her with the therapist there?
Im seriously not ready for this, but I feel that I have no choice...Anyone else have similar issues ((I figure this is NOT an uncommon thing)). Thoughts?
