Quote from: Cindy James on November 06, 2012, 01:59:17 AM
I suppose on of the more subtle answers, and possibly of a lot of interest. Where were 5 years ago?
Nice one Cindy,
That's easy. Still in long term depression, anxiety with associated health issues; although fighting it for all its worth (Yes, to a degree, faking it till you make it, does work.)
Probably seriously considering yet again another "compromise," (Life after acknowledging and validating my feminine persona was a succession of "compromises.") of natural breast enhancement. Yet still extremely concerned about putting anything other than food into my body. You must remember I was the type that would let headaches get to epic proportions before I would even consider a paracetamol tablet ( Aspro/Panadol)
Certainly a thousand miles from GCS or even the possibility of transition. Words that were not in my vocabulary, let alone in any form of research. So far from the radar those two life changing matters, I was seriously considering how long I could last under such unrelenting stress. The idea of checking out of the planet ahead of schedule was gaining momentum.
Impossible, was a frequently used term with respects to any sort of future. Quite desperation ruled every hour of every day. Fortunately, mediocrity had not taken root in my conscious.
My god!!! Now look at me. Supercharged with life, Full time, HRT, arranging meet and greet of shortlisted surgeons, looking forward to, before first half of 2013 for the date, well advanced in search for the man to spend the rest of my life with, and started the search of every avenue on adoption/surrogacy for our family.
Diametrically opposed positions is the closest definition I can find to explain the difference between then and now. So; not only do dreams really come true, the unimaginable, does become your reality.
So for those who are not there yet, take consolation in 3 basis laws. Never say never; Never give up and never allow mediocrity into your life. There is an amazingly awesome world out there waiting for you, to live your life beyond the "max." Go get it, it's yours.
Love
Catherine