Earlier in the day I put up my account for deletion, fortunately it wasn't. It wasn't really a rash decision, but maybe one of desperation. It came to my attention that some of the mods were concerned about me. As much as I wish I never existed from time to time, I don't believe in suicide. So unfortunately I'm stuck here living for now. Since I'm not going anywhere, I've been advised that I could help people with my success, and even though I don't feel successful, I know I've at least managed to stay alive, despite my desires. I'm really not sure how I can help anyone, when I feel unable to even help myself. But as long as I'm stuck living, I couldn't imagine a better on-line community to be a member of. It's nice to know I guess, that anyone on Susan's would take the time to feel concern for me, so thanks for that. I don't know what I'm doing, but if I can help anyone on here, that would be a good thing.
