Luna, you can't have everything. Nobody has a magic wand.
If your parents will support you while you're in school, stay at home and LEARN. Join Tri-Ess and get outside en femme. Find the similar groups in your area and make friends. Find supportive people and then interact with them - in person - out of the house - en femme.
Yes, it's scary, but it's sexy, too.
You'll enjoy the heck out of it even though at first it will feel like your heart will burst.
You're young enough to learn how, so LEARN. You can't do that at home.