Alrighty, so go ahead and skip this first bit if you don't feel like reading a bunch of rambling!... after a lot of consideration and brainstorming I've decided to start a thread about my planned FFS with Dr Z. I've been reluctant because I am unsure if it is too soon to post this, or if it makes any difference, or if it will help to alleviate my anxieties (and possibly someone else's.) Regardless, I am going to continue on trying to do my part to depart with the community information, experiences, and reassurance as you all have done for me. That being said there may be long periods of time between activities, however it is just here in waiting for the finale.
To begin I'll talk a little about myself, just in case anyone is wondering since I will be using this to follow up on my consultation, surgery, and pre-post occurrences. My name is Braeley (I stole a D and added an E), I'm twenty-five years old currently and reside in Vermont. Sometimes I dress as a woman, sometimes I dress as a man. Clothes are clothes! I've been undergoing hormone replacement therapy for almost five years now and had been strongly contemplating FFS ever since the beginning. My mindset was that I would wait a year or two to see the changes in my face, then work toward altering what I couldn't deal with after.
To touch on wanting to do the FFS I'd like to cover a few things I've realized and learned from myself and other girls. For one, the decision to undergo any alteration or cosmetic surgery (I really think it's more of a "corrective" surgery for us) is completely dependent on that person's desires. Many have told me that I do not need or require any alteration, that I am fine the way I am, that I pass, that all is well, etc. Yet to me when I look in the mirror and at my face I still see the shell of a boy from the past and the real me sitting behind it all waiting to burst out. Sometimes we just want to see someone new in that mirror, someone who doesn't remind us of that past. I think that is reasonable enough for me.
My consultation is on November the 21st, planning the surgery to be next summer, and I have a very good idea of what the doctor will suggest. I've gotten assessments from many doctors including Spiegel, Ousterhout, Suporn, Cardenas, and Bensimon to name a few. Deciding on who you want to trust with your face is very difficult and a personal thing, but what got me through it was my gut feeling. Little things have done it for me from the quickness to respond to my inquiries to how I am handled during calls, being able to laugh and joke and be light-hearted with staff.
And now the meat of it. I'm predicting my procedures would be along the lines of:
- Jaw/chin recontouring.
- Brow reduction/shave.
- Feminization rhinoplasty.
- Cheek augmentation.
- Trachael shave.This could be more or less than others, maybe some think I won't need it to look fine, but I feel that it is something I strongly desire. Again, I am doing this for myself and for myself only. I think someone said to me here, "You look great unless you're not showing us something." It made me smile because I know for sure there is a lot of little/big somethings! I think that by showing others my truly nightmarish assessment photos it might make someone feel better about themselves or whatever. I'm not very clever forgive me!
Let's get this show on the road ladies and bust out my no make-up, no hair-do mugshots!Front Before
Side Before
Comments, suggestions, ideas, backrubs? Feel free to let me know and I will keep everyone posted who is interested! For now though it's time for a nice bubble bath and the greasiest food I can grip my mittens around. Gosh, the pictures are almost enough to give me an anxiety attack, haha!
