Hi Sydney,
A big Aussie welcome to Susan's family. It's good of you to drop in and say "Hi". Hope you like it here, and you stay for a while.
There is a mountain of information, resources and friendship waiting for you here, you just need to jump in start talking and ask any question you like. You're quite safe here and we are very accepting.
Transition is a very diverse landscape, and is different things for different people. Where do you feel it's all a big fail?
You may be pleasantly surprised when you talk about it, just how common and normal your issue may be. i'll even go so far to say, it's realistically repairable.
Looking forward to hearing more of your story in time to come, but in the meantime, be safe, well and happy.
Lotsa huggs
Catherine.