Well.....I am sitting here on this sunny day in Ct....I figured I would post since it has been awhile. I am finally going to a therapist. I found one about an hour or so from here. I am nervous but excited. I am ready that is for sure. I was seeing someone....but she hardly understood the gay thing never mind if I told her I was trans. I got my binder about three weeks ago.....I obviously wear it all the time. I love it and am going to get one or two more so I have them. I work 16 hour days so I definitely need more than one.
My girlfriend and I had postponed our wedding but we talked about it and we have decided to have the wedding in August anyway. When I told her she cried everyday....now she is coming around. She is starting to accept me for me.....and she is even starting to refer to me as he. It makes me feel good. I knew she loved me......and she always would but she has stood by me through this. We both decided that we love one another and that will not change no matter how much I am going to change. We actually went to get my tuxedo for the wedding....and Jen said "He will be wearing all white, It made me feel good and I love her for the fact that she is trying. The woman who owned the place did not question whether I was a guy or not. It really does feel great when people dont question me. I am not even close to being on T.....but right now I am passing and I love it. I also went to a Red Sox game about two weeks ago......GO SOX.....and used the mens room and had no problems. Its great.
Since I told Jen and can actually talk to her about things......it has made me come out of my shell....at home and at work. Jen even says that I have changed the way I act and just like I have said I have come out of my shell. At work...I even feel different even though I have no idea how the hell i am going to come out there. But I guess that is what a therapist is for.
Anyway...I guess that is it. I just wanted to write what I was thinking about right now. I love this forum and will continue to post.... yeah thanks for listening or reading!
