I'am lost

[jossef-ftm]

I dont know what to do or where to go
No job-no future-no money-no friends
i'am at home 24/24 stuck in a country where NO LGBTQ rights
i cant imigrate cause of my parents i have to take care of  them,i really dont know whY i put this here but i'am just need someone to talk to I'am really not ok i keep smiling but inside i'am dying i cant tell anybody here cause they dont even know what is transgender and its''haram'its a big sin cause i live in an arabic country i hate my self i hate how i look i hate look at the mirror cause i dont see me  i hate everything ?If only i can have a life like a every human bieng on this earth ,i want have job and friends i want marry a beautiful woman and have kids and a family like every man i wanna live --dont i deserv it ? anyway those things will stay a dream
YOUR PRAYERS

[DeeperThanSwords]

I'm so sorry that life is hard for you now. May I ask which country you are in? Also, how do you think your parents would react if you spoke with them about how you feel? Would they take your depression seriously? Are there any mental health services available to you?

[AdamMLP]

I don't really have any advice to give, I just wanted to say that we're all here for you man.  Is there anyway you can get out of your country to transition?

[Simon]

This is a hard life to live. There are very few of us who are charmed and have an easy transition. You have to keep holding on and striving for a better tomorrow. Take it one day at a time. That is all any of us can do. When you look at everything at once it gets overwhelming.

I don't know how to help you except to say that I'm always willing to listen so if you ever need someone to talk to feel free to send me a message anytime.

[Natkat]

I pretty much understand what you mean,
I have to ask, is the reason your unable to get a job because of things like, womans not allowed, or due to other reasons?