Hijacking this thread a bit. No kisses needed, but maybe a hug for this guy?
Dealing with someone sending me very mixed signals. Tells me he has needs and wants to have a sexual relationship, which I can't do between the dysphoria and my immaturity. At first, he was all willing to be understanding, and even supported my gender identity. He has just completely slipped with pronouns, which I can't even care about at this point, but when I attempt to set him free after he pushes me away, he tells me that the house is going to be empty.
So I should drop everything for you and run over there on New Year's Eve so that you can try to coerce me into doing something I'll regret immediately after by making me feel guilty? Nope, I'm done with this.
I made an exception in my heart against my better judgement (identified strictly as asexual and aromantic, but broke down out of pity and then developed real feelings after a while), and you throw it in my face. Nice job, bro.
Then on top of it, I have to put up with the same **** on a daily basis. I glance over at my guitar and seriously think of running away to join the countless army of subway musicians to play for a living, just until I'm of legal age to be on my own, but then I worry about being reported missing because it would mean having to avoid going to my school in order to stay hidden, and that won't allow me to finish out my education. I honestly don't know if I have the strength to keep this up between my horrible self-loathing, worsening dysphoria, the daily assault on my identity, and other things, amongst my schoolwork.
Any takers? They tell me I'm cuddly like a little teddy bear.
