Confused

[Renae.Lupini]

Welcome to the neighborhood. You aren't crazy, nuts, strange, weird, or anything else either. It will take some time to sort some stuff out and eventually you will come into your own. None of us are the TG Yoda, but together we make a pretty damn good teal of people who "have been there, done that" and will do our best to assist you through the process.

[Lucy]

Mattie, as you get older and t GID takes over our decision to stay gets harder & harder. I have chosen the same path but have come to a major cross roads, its hard to stay focused but i wish u luck.

[Mattie]

People tell me I can be pretty stubborn at times.  In this case its a good thing.  And the way I have to look at it is this: I am the way I was supposed to be despite any doubt I may have about it.  Its like you are told you are you have to eat vanilla ice cream for the rest of your life.  Thats cool vanilla ice cream isn't a bad flavor.  Chocolate ice cream would be better, but vanilla is A OK.  I really can't see myself doing what I should with chocolate whereas vanilla is not only what I'm used to its what seems more appropriate down the road.

[LostInTime]

But who is it more appropriate for?

Welcome to the boards.

LIT

[Lucy]

I can understand how u feel, by having vanilla every one can enjoy the treat but you what, its alright to want chocolate and lookafter yourself now and then. If your family come before your sanity you are a very strong STUBBEN person in deed.

[Maebh]

Anyway it got me to thinking that I want kids someday.  Yet as much as my body image is negative toward looking male, I can only ever see myself as being a father.  Therefore I shall call myself male but with a feminine side that extends out to Mars. 

What ever is right for you at this point in time Mattie. There is no rush to make hasty choices or lock yourself in a rigid position. A Gender therapist might help you to clarify your feelings. What is important is that you make whatever decision because it is the best for you and not to fulfill other people expectations. Good luck and enjoy the journey, You know that you can come here and sound out at anytime without fear of judgement or pressure.

HLLL&R

Maebh

PS I have 3 lovely and loving children and I would.nt change them for all the gold in the world. It wasn't always easy but they make me so happy and so proud, they really are a gift... and guess what? they accept me for who I am and I accept them for who they are. I sincerely wish you the same.

[Jillieann Rose]

There may come a day when you can't stand vanilla ice cream anymore. No matter how hard you try. I hope for your sake you never get there. It's no fun hating vanilla and I don't care what is appropriate anymore either.
The way I see it is if society says you got to live all of your life disfigured then forget what society says.
I need to healed.
Jillieann