Cynthialee, I am starting to change, face, breasts, hair and fat. Also, I am experiencing desire changes much more toward male, stronger and more vivid. I was discussing with the therapist Friday about what is the biggie about being lesbian ( I do not have many filters). Why do cis hetero woman find it so revolting? She said imagine a TGirl who is made to act male, the feelings are similar. The future is not written but feel it will be difficult.
Jessica, I hope it helps another Trans* person. I wanted to put the whole experience on Susan's to help others. I hold back very little but I do hold back some. I do not want the thread to get moved. I was so close the end of Nov. and Dec. and the brothers and Sisters here save my life. This is the thank you. Sorry, I have not been on FB for a while but will go there this weekend. Thanks for taking interest.
For clarity I would be considered a Red Neck by others who do not know the real me. I have a truck and my girlie subcompact. When I am with a certain group I wear flannel and have guns (my cover life I made) when I am me I wear spandex work out gear and woman's underwear and Bra. At work people are asking around if I am gay (some guys are becoming friendly, smiles, a wink or two, touching and a few hugs). My identity is changing as well as my life is changing.
I am sure I will have gains and losses. I hope to keep it together and I am trying my hardest to become me.