Hi Sadie, thank you for the recommendation and I support; I ordered the book from Amazon.
I had my labiaplasty with doctor McGinn and Chrystal today at Papillion. She did amazing work and my clitoris looked fantastic. I am on no exercise for 4 weeks and no clitoris cleaning for 2 weeks then on out as needed cleaning with a Q-tip.
She did not remember the BA so I reminded her. She got my chart and she said oh you are the one that kept telling us you have a normal low heart rate and we did not believe you and tried to increase it. Yeah, that one. July 13 is the date for my BA
Initially Chrystal did my checkup and treated some granulation. She asked about relationships and orgasms and T. Relationships no. orgasm May 7th and T no. I told her I stopped it. She asked why and I said I was taking 1/3 the dose they recommended and my T was 80 ng/dl. My PA-c is not a fan of T for transwoman and for the same reason I was skiddiest. I hate the thought of T in my body; the thought it can attack my hair. Chrystal found a loose hair in my vagina and removed it. It was not growing in there but still, yuck. She said that may have been the cause of the vaginal discharge and odor.
Chrystal then asked why I was not in a relationship and not had intercourse. I replied something, I forget, then she said isn't this the point of the operation, to have a relationship now that you have the body that matches your gender. I said yes.
Doctor McGinn came in after Chrystal left and we had a chat. I discussed my FFS and the results and how the jowls are not to my expectation and she commented that my eyes are not as open as they could have been. I asked her about VFS and Dr. Spiegel and Haben. She said she is not a fan of VFS and that my voice was not bad. I told her I am going to Blaker Associates (she went there) and she said to say hi to them for her. She then said at some point you need to stop the surgeries and just live your life and be you. She said when your hair grows in it will make a big difference.
I took the discussions from Dr. McGinn and Chrystal as the mama bird kicking the baby bird out of the nest. I get what they are saying and they are right. Relationship, finding a guy and experiencing sex seam so daunting. I know deep down inside they are right and it is what I want but I am scared.