I was triggered pretty bad last leek at group. It was about physical and sexual abuse when a person was young and recently. The two weeks prior (one week prior as the trans health conference) three woman went into detail about coming out to family and relatives. The destruction of relationships was so depressing and it brought up a lot of emotions.
There is a point when you are sailing along and enjoying life and then wham you are back in the time things imploded. I give the best support I can. I know where things are heading for them. I know if they are strong they will adjust to the new normal.
I am starting to really like being me. There are times it is difficult but I know I will get through it and know it is just temporary.
I heard this from others. It gets better

and now I can see how things get better. Different but better.
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Next Sunday I head to Dr. Cooley's for round 2 hair transplants. They did 3500 grafts last time and corrected 1/3 of my bald top and are doing 2000 grafts this time. I will ask them when can I color my hair (blond) and can I do more grafts in the future or are we done and what is the outcome.
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I am starting an appeal for my FFS and have contacted a Lawyer (transman from Harvard) that specializes in trans insurance appeals. If I see 50% recoup from the appeal then I will be happy. This is more about my agency. I am finally at a spot where I can challenge my insurance company and my work (self insured) and not accept. I have wonderful benefits and they are a fantastic employer; however, I need to do this to show myself an end of the beginning.
I have a message into Mazzoni and Dr. Siegel's for documentation. Mount Auburn changed medical records filing systems and I will need to call them to get a copy of my medical record. My therapist is making a special letter defining my past GD about my face. Funny thing is I can look in mirrors now, in the bathroom at work too.
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I did two 5 mile hikes this weekend in 1.5 to 1.75 hours up and down hills ( I wonder if I can add my 40 pound pack back in after my BA?) I will need to contact Papillion. I really want to increase my conditioning. I will do 30 flights of steps in the morning during the week. I added squats at the top last week and will increase that to 50. Also I will add a lunch step routine with lunges (25/leg) the top.
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I filed for my new passport this weekend and changing my 403B too

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