I don't think thats the case Asian. You are getting hooked to it because it is the chemical your brain feels your body needs. Like I said, if you were not transgender estrogen would work very differantly. The fact it is working the way it is, is a sign that you are transsexual, and that your brain and your body were not matching when you were born, your gender (mind) and sex (body) were differant. You cannot change your brain, but the body and body chemistry...well that can be changed. You are bringing congruity to your mind, that is why it is attaching itself so strongly to estrogen.
Why did you try to stop Wendy?