Hi everyone.. I'm Alice. Well, not quite yet anyway.. That's not my birth name, but when I transition it will be the name I choose for myself.
I'm really bad at introducing myself to people mainly because I hate everything about myself and am very quiet around people because I can't stand my voice. But I'm going to try anyways
My birthday was yesterday actually.. I guess I can say I've started my transition but it's really kind of complicated.. For the past year and a half I've worn makeup and girls clothes.. carried around a purse, wore heals, all that.. I was the boy who dressed like a girl.. I didn't want to transition.. well, okay. My whole life I've always felt jealous of girls.. for looking good in dresses and whatever, and I'd always try on my sisters clothes. And it felt right. Wearing boys clothes growing up was really uncomfortable for me. I'd always want my makeup done, and nobody would understand why, and nobody would do it. Anyways, I have like, waves of wanting to transition I guess i can call it. Every time it comes, it gets more and more intense.. This time around I've been feeling like this for like 5 months.. not knowing what to do, not knowing who to talk to, denying myself to be who I feel inside.
I don't even know where I'm going with this, but I just need people to talk to and this forum seems really good, and I've been reading a lot of posts on it so I decided I'd sign up.
I have so many questions..