Honestly after just a few weeks of hrt the "urge" to have a male orgasm was clearly gone. I go weeks at a time now in between and I feel like I am just tending to a chore to keep things running now. I don't mind at all, actually it is kind of a relief. No longer feels like I have a heat seeking missile coming after me every night. I am also not on any sort of anti androgen, just pellet implants and progesterone shots. About a week ago I realized morning erections are no longer an issue and I love that. Orgasms themselves have been incredibly easy to achieve when I try but have definitely diminished in intensity. Also most of the things that used to turn me on are now kind of meh.
I find I am much more turned on by life in general.I have lost about 20 lbs and my weight has finally evened out to about 128lbs (I'm 5'7"), and I've been eating like crazy to maintain that weight. Two weeks ago I was down to 125 and started eating way more avocados, nuts, and veganaise. I am wondering if it will be like Alaina and I will gain it back in softness after a while! I hope so! I used to weigh 145 just a couple of months ago, and my torso was very V shaped. Now it is basically straight up and down, except my waist has gone in considerably (over 1") and I can see the start of a feminine profile!!!! Arms have lost 3/4" around the bicep, bust has gone up 1.5", waist down 1.5", hips the same, neck is down by 1". Inner thighs are looking much much softer. This is after 2 months!! I wasn't even that muscular to start with.
Facial and body hair growth is definitely slowing down (arm & leg hair is thinning out), some hairs on my chest have fallen out completely which is a relief, I think I was less than a year from some pretty gnar gnar chest & body hair.
Also getting hair regrowth on my temple areas where it had JUST started to thin out to blonde... I have a bunch of 1/4" length brown hairs growing in.
As far as estrogen feeling right... Absolutely felt perfect for me since the first week I started. Within two weeks I could cry on demand (euphoric kind of crying) and since then it has kind of evened out into a general feeling of being content who I am becoming. Could be a placebo I suppose due to many things changing, but I think I notice a change in thought patterns. No moodiness, no jarring change of anything. Just calmness and happiness, mixed with way more self consciousness... But isn't that just part of being a girl?? Either way I know E is right for me!
Pellet implants work, and they work HARD!
