OP: You need to calm down some and take some deep breaths. You seem to try to be jumping to hasty decision and panicking. Just breeaatthheee. Ok.
Does it really matter what your label is? Why not be who you are without worrying about that? If you like your body but happen to like wearing dresses, then be a dude who likes wearing dresses. Nothing wrong with that. I have seen many cases of people claiming to be transsexual purely because of that. They are a boy who enjoys makeup, they are a girl who dislikes wearing dresses. Being transsexual is a lot deeper than that. It's down, very deep within you and how you feel about yourself. You've gotta separate it from society's norms.
You should not worry. Find a therapist or support group, as others have said. They'll be happy to help you whether your truly trans or not. Just from what I've seen, I don't think you are, but that's my opinion and I don't personally know you, so take that piece of advice with care. Just enjoy who you are. If others are labeling you then just let them, it's none of their business who you are. Stop worrying so much and just enjoy life as best as you can
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One last thing that bothered me about your original post. Just because somebody is transsexual doesn't mean they HAVE to transition. It's true, the majority do, but some don't, like myself. It's a very big decision and some aren't comfortable like that. I still live as a boy, but I just don't have the parts and don't want to be on hormones the rest of my life/have major surgeries to fix that.
