Just realized something...I must be blind

[Imreallyconfused]

I just looked through some of my old pictures when I was younger and realized something horrible. Well it's not horrible in that sense of something bad looming. I mean horrible as in, I must be blind. The only masculine features I have besides the genetic super jaw I have is the fact that I have a huge ass, hips wider than most of my friends who are girls, thicker thighs, the slightly bent lower back as if I permanently bent over backwards, a very skinny waste line, a face like a small child who got her hair cut off, cheeks like a girl, lips like a girl, big round eyes like a girl.....OMG.

Wow I am stupid AND blind actually. It never occurred to me that my body was in itself already that of a woman. I just added some muscle, lots of scars, and broken bones to the list.

Oh yeh, my hands are big, BUT I have long slender fingers. I used to be a size 15 shoe.....don't ask I have no idea how. Now I am a 10 and shrinking. Mind you I am not on HRT, I have just come out of the closet and I'm just realizing this stuff now. I have never been able to build a muscular chest ever, never had six pack abs, but I always had the nice slim cheerleader stomach.

GAHHH WHY NOW!! grrrrr.

Sorry for the babbling parade I just put on. Needed to get that out and I thought since I am hopefully soon (If money can be made by rubbing 2 pennies together) I can see a doctor and start on my journey into becoming a real woman =].

Oh yeh, feel free to laugh I don't mind =]. Lets just say I can be a real quack sometimes.

[Shannon1979]

Not sure how the 15 went down too a ten but hey ho. I kinda realized the same things in a way authough i dont have hips (humph). When i fiert put on a wig i realized that i dont have masculine features apart from the muscle distribution. Makes it a hell of a lot easier to pass with a little (ok a lot) of make up.

[Imreallyconfused]

I was dressed up once as a full head to toe woman by my friends (lost a bet) and I was hit on by my male friends who had no idea it was me. I think the darker skin tones help me make up wise. I don't really have to use much.

[Shannon1979]

I was dressed up once as a full head to toe woman by my friends (lost a bet) and I was hit on by my male friends who had no idea it was me. I think the darker skin tones help me make up wise. I don't really have to use much.

My skin is quite fair so it shows up all the marks and blemishes. so i do need to use a good foundation to even it out. the blush also helps to pull in the bottom half of my cheeks as well.

[Imreallyconfused]

That's a good strategy to bring out the feminine facial line. I no longer have the nice perfect skin I used to have in high school. If I transitioned then, I think my name on here would be babyface. Have you started HRT or no?

[Shannon1979]

That's a good strategy to bring out the feminine facial line. I no longer have the nice perfect skin I used to have in high school. If I transitioned then, I think my name on here would be babyface. Have you started HRT or no?

Not yet still sorting refferal to gender clinic. But hopefully soon.

[Imreallyconfused]

I'm trying to do some searching around, but there is nothing in my area in the way of support groups or anyone that I can talk to face to face about this. It's really a let down. I hate Connecticut.

[Shannon1979]

I cant say much for the US, but i have found it quite good so far here in the UK (Leicester). But im only in the early stages so i will have to see what happens. I think it probably helps having the national health service. They can be pretty useless at times but if you know how to deal with them its not bad.

Is there no LGBT group where you live?

[Kevin Peña]

You lucky little... why I oughta! 

[kira21 ♡♡♡]

There was the XXY guy who was already pretty femme as you would imagine and when he got stung by a bee and his body reset and he started growing breasts and stuff. Might be worth a look up. You could be xxy if you are already so femme in appearance.

Steph :-)
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[Imreallyconfused]

There was the XXY guy who was already pretty femme as you would imagine and when he got stung by a bee and his body reset and he started growing breasts and stuff. Might be worth a look up. You could be xxy if you are already so femme in appearance.

Steph :-)
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That would be pretty crazy if that happened to me. Get stung or have an allergic reaction to something and my body switches to girl mode. I wouldn't mind honestly if that were to happen. Would make my life a lot easier.

I cant say much for the US, but i have found it quite good so far here in the UK (Leicester). But im only in the early stages so i will have to see what happens. I think it probably helps having the national health service. They can be pretty useless at times but if you know how to deal with them its not bad.

Is there no LGBT group where you live?

There are but they are almost an hour drive away from me in either direction. It sucks.