Just sent an email to my mom...

[StellaB]

Am I the only one who each time this thread gets updated hears Norman Greenbaum's 'Spirit in the Sky' song in my head?

I'm sorry Anna, but it's almost like thinking of the Lone Ranger each time you hear the William Tell Overture.

But then again I can find fault with your mother's logic writing as someone who's butt ugly. I think it's a terrible analogy given the amount of people out there who are born with defects and hereditary impairments.

I mean can you imagine say, someone born with asthma? 'No doctor no inhalers for me. The Lord gave me perfect lungs and I quite enjoy wheezing all the time."

I also suspect that she wants you to find a 'cure'. But then again, I also suspect she reads too many coloured magazines.

[Anna++]

Am I the only one who each time this thread gets updated hears Norman Greenbaum's 'Spirit in the Sky' song in my head?

I've heard the song!  But no, it doesn't play through my head.  At least not yet... maybe next time...

I also suspect that she wants you to find a 'cure'. But then again, I also suspect she reads too many coloured magazines.

And all this time I thought the cure to me wanting to be a woman was to become a woman!   I hope that one day she realizes that "trans but don't want to be" doesn't describe how I feel any more.

[Charley Bea(EmeraldP)]

For me the only cure worth finding is the band The Cure XD

[StellaB]

And all this time I thought the cure to me wanting to be a woman was to become a woman!   I hope that one day she realizes that "trans but don't want to be" doesn't describe how I feel any more.

Now that is logical.. and what's more you can easily twist your mother's logic round to agree.

I mean, if the Lord didn't want you to transition, He would not have made you trans. See?

You can see even on your pic that you're becoming who you're meant to be. Kind of sad your parents are cutting off their noses to spite their faces.

[Anna++]

Quick update:  I had a friend read the letter and her eyes went wide several times while she was looking at it.  Apparently it was something rambling about religion, with made-up regret statistics thrown in.  She suggested that it would be best if I didn't read it, so straight to the shredder it goes!

[ZoeM]

Quick update:  I had a friend read the letter and her eyes went wide several times while she was looking at it.  Apparently it was something rambling about religion, with made-up regret statistics thrown in.  She suggested that it would be best if I didn't read it, so straight to the shredder it goes!

Anna,
I'm so sorry things have come this far - they have their course and you have yours and I don't think they understand you're not moving no matter what they say.

But. You are demonstrating incredible strength in your response. I only wish there were a way to temper it with reconciliation.

[Anna++]

I've decided that I'm only going to reply to non-horrible email.  Like the other day, my mom sent one asking if I had rescheduled my upcoming dentist appointment so it doesn't conflict with my friend's wedding.  I replied with a simple "yes".  Hopefully I can use some kind of conditioning so they eventually only send friendly letters

Quote from my friend:

It was pretty bad, and mostly incoherent.

[Ltl89]

Anna,

I'm so sorry to hear this whole ordeal.  I knew things were rough with your family, but..... well, I just read this thread.  Big hugs.

[Misato]

Yeah you're doing amazing.

And what is that I see?... Congratulations on your one month HRT anniversary!

[Anna++]

I'm so sorry to hear this whole ordeal.  I knew things were rough with your family, but..... well, I just read this thread.  Big hugs.

Thanks, the hug is very much appreciated

And what is that I see?... Congratulations on your one month HRT anniversary!

Whoo!    Bring on month two!

[Anna++]

GRATS on 1 month of hormones! I'm on day 2 of hormones, but not that far off! Glad we can go on this journey together Anna

Me too!  One month isn't too far off in the bigger scheme of things.  You'll have almost a month to prepare yourself for anything hormonal that I might post about

[kyh]

Me too!  One month isn't too far off in the bigger scheme of things.  You'll have almost a month to prepare yourself for anything hormonal that I might post about

I'll follow your progress with bated breath! ^_^

[ZoeM]

Just beware of what happens during Month 3, girls. >_>

[kyh]

Just beware of what happens during Month 3, girls. >_>

Do tell!!!! >_<

[Anna++]

Do tell!!!! >_<

Perhaps in a different thread so this one doesn't get too off-topic?

[kyh]

Perhaps in a different thread so this one doesn't get too off-topic?

Good idea! Hope you make that thread ZoeM

[Charley Bea(EmeraldP)]

Hope so to as I am heading into month 4 and haven't noticed much.

[ZoeM]

Just so nobody else gets confused: I was joking. Aside from comfortable amounts of breast sensitivity, I noticed nothing during Month 3.

[Charley Bea(EmeraldP)]

Same here, although some have said things really kick in around the 5-6 month mark so I can report on that later XD

*We now return you to regular broadcast topic*

[Anna++]

It's not over yet, folks.  I got this yesterday:

The cottonwood tree fuzz is falling and it makes me think of my son. The fuzz falls near his birthday, and I remember all his birthdays past. I really, really miss him with his happy smile and whistle. And I wish I could hug him again. There's a hole in my heart that won't go away.

I've decided just to ignore it.  Should I be concerned that I'm feeling emotionally numb towards my parents right now?  I'm not angry, I'm not sad, I'm not disappointed, and I'm definitely not happy.  I feel nothing right now.