Not masturbating for a few days removes desire to transition

[TroubledTeen]

I've noticed that if a don't masturbate for a few days, I lose all desire to transition and most of my dysphoria. My mind also becomes focused on sex. During that time I decided I shouldn't transition and I was gonna stay male, then afterwards I got all of the dysphoria back, in fact I have it worse right now. Should I take this into consideration? And can anyone relate? I am not on HRT yet. And this is not my real account because talking about my male sexual habits humiliates me.

[Rita]

Your situation sounds rather complicated, I cannot relate but I would suggest you find a LBGT center and try to get in contact with a friendly gender therapist.

Not so you can transition, not so you can take hormones but so you can work through these feelings.  Help you figure out what they mean to you. Better understand yourself, and why you tick the way you do.  It is a very personal experience!  After you understand than you can decide whether the feelings you get are real or temporary.

[ZoeM]

Testosterone flooding your system? *unsure*

[Catherine Sarah]

Hi Troubled Teen,

This is a very typical reaction of the male brain. Stimulation from masturbation, does increase oxytocin and dopamine levels in the brain creating this euphoria of wanting to transition. Once the pleasure centres of you brain have had their 'fix' testosterone levels return to normal, closing down the expression to transition.

As has been suggested, contacting a gender therapist is your best solution. They are able to guide you through the labyrinth of feelings and emotions.

This is normal development for a person in your position and there is no need to worry about it. It does not necessarily mean you are transgendered. If you are younger than 21 your brain is still maturing.

Be safe well and happy
Lotsa huggs
Catherine

[TroubledTeen]

I've thought I was transgendered for years, what do you mean euphoria? If you're saying that this is a typical reaction of a teenage male brain, which sounds weird to me, then that is greatly upsetting.

[MaidofOrleans]

I've thought I was transgendered for years, what do you mean euphoria? If you're saying that this is a typical reaction of a teenage male brain, which sounds weird to me, then that is greatly upsetting.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Euphoria

[elnora]

I've thought I was transgendered for years, what do you mean euphoria? If you're saying that this is a typical reaction of a teenage male brain, which sounds weird to me, then that is greatly upsetting.

They mean a typical reaction of someone with high levels of testosterone in their system, whatever their gender identity.

[Tiffany]

it is weird, when i dont masturbate, i will feel there a desire for transition and dress up. when i on hormones, and there is not dildo, i feel dull and no need for transition. but i wanted to be a girl since 7 and i dont masturbate at that age. so i think i ultimately, i still wished to be a girl.

i am 29 this year and just started on hormones. hope i can push this through this time because previously i started hormones and i stop for several time.

[Feather]

For me it's like the other way around. I'm not in your situation but after accepting my sexual fantasies about being a women I have less need to masturbate, it is very low. I still have these fantasies but the sexual power is greatly diminished.

[Catherine Sarah]

I've thought I was transgendered for years, what do you mean euphoria?

By euphoric I meant the heightened state of arousal in the "pleasure centres" of the brain brought on by the build up of ocytocins (a 'stimulant' hormone) and dopamine. Once these components subside to normal levels, the pleasure centres are deactivated to a degree. Whereby the more 'normal' brain activity of general awareness of caution, fear, anxiety, risk etc take control. These elements are generally disabled during states of "pleasure sensations."  I hope I'm making myself clear.

If you're saying that this is a typical reaction of a teenage male brain, which sounds weird to me, then that is greatly upsetting.

Can you elaborate on what part is creating the upset? I may be able to simplify a complex process a bit better if you can define what part is causing concern.

Get hold of a book titled, "The Male Brain" by Dr Louann Brizendine. It's well worth the read. The bibliography alone is top pedigree

Be safe, well and happy.

Lotsa huggs
Catherine

[Nero]

I've thought I was transgendered for years, what do you mean euphoria?

By euphoric I meant the heightened state of arousal in the "pleasure centres" of the brain brought on by the build up of ocytocins (a 'stimulant' hormone) and dopamine. Once these components subside to normal levels, the pleasure centres are deactivated to a degree. Whereby the more 'normal' brain activity of general awareness of caution, fear, anxiety, risk etc take control. These elements are generally disabled during states of "pleasure sensations."  I hope I'm making myself clear.

If you're saying that this is a typical reaction of a teenage male brain, which sounds weird to me, then that is greatly upsetting.

Can you elaborate on what part is creating the upset? I may be able to simplify a complex process a bit better if you can define what part is causing concern.

Get hold of a book titled, "The Male Brain" by Dr Louann Brizendine. It's well worth the read. The bibliography alone is top pedigree

Be safe, well and happy.

Lotsa huggs
Catherine

Hi Catherine. I believe the OP identifies as female and has done so for a long time, so is bristling at the "typical reaction of a teenage male brain" part. As a guy, I don't think I'd want to hear something about the 'typical female brain' in regard to an issue I was posting about either. Also, she wonders if you're saying this is just a typical non transgendered reaction of  the 'male brain' which is upsetting because she identifies as female. I know you don't mean any offense though.
(Correct me if I'm wrong, OP)

[Catherine Sarah]

Hi Catherine. I believe the OP identifies as female and has done so for a long time, so is bristling at the "typical reaction of a teenage male brain" part. As a guy, I don't think I'd want to hear something about the 'typical female brain' in regard to an issue I was posting about either. Also, she wonders if you're saying this is just a typical non transgendered reaction of  the 'male brain' which is upsetting because she identifies as female. I know you don't mean any offense though.
(Correct me if I'm wrong, OP)

My most profound apologies to you TT. I have totally misunderstood your post. I apologise for upsetting you. It was not my intention.

Thank you FA for your better knowledge.  I appreciate you bringing my indiscretions to my notice, as quickly as you have.

Huggs
Catherine

[Nero]

Hi Catherine. I believe the OP identifies as female and has done so for a long time, so is bristling at the "typical reaction of a teenage male brain" part. As a guy, I don't think I'd want to hear something about the 'typical female brain' in regard to an issue I was posting about either. Also, she wonders if you're saying this is just a typical non transgendered reaction of  the 'male brain' which is upsetting because she identifies as female. I know you don't mean any offense though.
(Correct me if I'm wrong, OP)

My most profound apologies to you TT. I have totally misunderstood your post. I apologise for upsetting you. It was not my intention.

Thank you FA for your better knowledge.  I appreciate you bringing my indiscretions to my notice, as quickly as you have.

Huggs
Catherine

Well, I have more background on the situation than is apparent in the OP. 

[A]

I can -sort of- relate. I've never had the desire to transition go away, however, back when I still had testosterone ruining my body and mind, I lived something similar.

I felt incredibly awful each time I masturbated, and every time I managed some time without doing it (and that wasn't so often, since most of the time the artificial, unwanted arousal was stronger than me), I felt a little better. Only to have it crash down extremely bad when I did it again.

It might be that masturbating makes testosterone increase, making you feel worse because you have even more of the product in you, whilst normally, the amount you have is tolerable. Or it might be a psychological effect. Something like, each time your masturbate, you're violently reminded of everything you hate about yourself.

Or it might be something else, entirely. If I were you, I'd see a therapist. I've given hypotheses, but guessing is risky in a hard to understand situation like this. A sexologist, perhaps, if your therapist isn't so comfortable with discussing such private issues in depth.