genderqueer

[Riley Skye]

So right now I'm 2.5 months on hormones and honestly couldn't be happier. The one thing I'm finding weird is that  even though I identify with a female body I don't identify completely as female. I feel as if I'm gender queer. That I have am neither truly masculine nor feminime. I feel as if I hover around an in between internally, that I would be happy to be recognized as neither. On the other hand I feel as if I was born in the wrong body, that I will be much more comfortable and happy having a female one. I have full desire to go through a compete transition and live mostly as awoman. Even though I'm sure about transitioning I'm still confused with my internal gender. I've been talking with my therapist and we both agreed that right now hormones are the correct path.

[natastic]

I basically feel the same way as you!

I've ID'd as genderqueer for quite a few years, started hormones almost 6 months ago, and intend to legally, socially, and medically (srs) transition to "female".  I've more or less reconciled (with the help of my therapist) my transition plans with my gender identity.  Being genderqueer isn't going to change once I finish transition!

The way I think about it, I'm just going from genderqueer "boy" to genderqueer "girl" with respect to how the world sees me, more than how I relate to myself.

Congratulations on starting on your transition path!

[brainiac]

At least for me, "genderqueer" is more about my identity (not male or female--somewhere in between) and my gender expression (varied types of clothing) than it is about my body. I think it's perfectly possible for you to be genderqueer and still want to get HRT and SRS. What's important is that it makes you happy!

[Riley Skye]

So far it has been nothing but smiles for me!  I've honestly never been happier in my life. To me being genderqueer is about expressing how you feel on the inside and running with it, its about exploring your gender and finding yourself. For me its expressing a happy niche in between male and female. I'm honestly just started exploring and got a lot of exciting times ahead

[Dovahkiin]

I feel gender queer. I definitely have the wrong body, but my gender and gender expression feel more fluid. But for me the body part is the most important bit, because I feel like I have the wrong parts... It's hard to explain. xD But I'm glad you've found the right path to take.

[Riley Skye]

I know what you mean, it's hard to explain lol. I myself feel that I have to have a female body and express need to express it in a very androgynous way. Honestly I'm very fluid in my gender, sometimes I feel rather masculine while other times very feminine but at the end of the day I know at heart I'm a genderqueer woman.

[Padma]

I'm this way too. Lately I've felt most comfortable thinking of myself as polygender, as I have several different traits to my gender identity, it's like an archipelago (though I don't experience them as separate, this is just a way of talking about the components - I have just the one identity, but it's complex and rich) - and it's very clear to me that I'm supposed to be this genderqueer woman/womandrogyne in a female body, hence the transition. And I'm also not transitioning in order to "stop being genderqueer" - it's all about the anatomy needing to change, there's nothing wrong with the gender.