New view/ perspective of ones-self

[calico]

I dont know if this is just me but..

Shortly after my surgery, I noticed myself in the mirror, and well..

Before hand I kinda only seen myself somewhat androgynally kinda like just a stick figure even though being fulltime for quite a while and on hormones and pass 100% of the time.

But after the surgery I totally see myself in a differnt light, I caught the mirror and stood their looking in it and well I see a girl now, a very defined girl, and I was only wearing my sleeping shirt and undies at the time, and my hair was a complete disaster.    it really makes me smile and makes my heart warm.

Also I keep catching myself in the thought that "I really finally did it! I got my surgery, everything is finaly correct!" and it brings me such happiness

anyone eese experience this or am I just a weirdo?

[babz]

Calico, It really Is a great feeling, I remember after my Op In Dr Chettawut's Clinic that all the rubbish going on In my head had gone & that the mind was In tune with body I have now. Finally at peace with my Inner Self. Thank god there are Surgeons who can do this to make It Right. Well done girl you are now through the worst.

Best Regards
Babz

[Tristan]

Calico your are right. i felt the same way after my surgery. it is a whole new light and beginning. just wait a little bit your going to be gravitating more towards your cis friends as you will most likely need some tips on well....things down south haha.

[Nicolette]

Calico, I'm really happy for you. You give me hope that I too will be a weirdo, hopefully this year. This thread makes me feel like I've already had the surgery, vicariously. It's the most inspiring surgical account to date.

[calico]

Calico, I'm really happy for you. You give me hope that I too will be a weirdo, hopefully this year. This thread makes me feel like I've already had the surgery, vicariously. It's the most inspiring surgical account to date.

ahh

[Vicky]

I cannot rule out the idea of being a weirdo for either of us, but YES looking at yourself in a mirror post op is totally new, and totally RIGHT for the first time in our lives.  Even with our fuzzy puppy slippers on our feet, and a sleep shirt with the wording Good Morning Sunshine, a face that has no relationship to sunshine and hair looking like dish scrubbing device, we still look better than we ever did before.

Proud of you for sure.

[Nicolette]

ahh

Your narrative of your surgical experience, I mean. Not just this thread. Your almost real-time account is full of the emotional trials and tribulations completely absent in many other accounts. I put off srs for many years (like 16 years!) because of fears of the unknown unknown. You have helped dispel many of those fears. Many thanks!

[NJade]

After surgery, I could finally look in the mirror and see the whole of me without averting my gaze.

And nothing you're experiencing is weird at all. Anyone who needed it can tell you how much it changed their lives.

N.J.

[milktea]

i'm a lot more reserved. i will only consider the process concluded after the year ends with everything down there fine and dandy.
but yeah i like looking at myself naked now with my full length mirror!!!

[mintra]

I'm a lot more confident wearing skirt or tight leggings! No more paranoid about tucking. Seriously, with srs completed and gender markers changed, I'm just happier and more confident in general...

[Tristan]

I'm a lot more confident wearing skirt or tight leggings! No more paranoid about tucking. Seriously, with srs completed and gender markers changed, I'm just happier and more confident in general...

I completely agree with you on this. It's like that part of worrying and your life are over. Now time for the new challenges and things to learn

[calico]

lmao the last 2 times I answered the door to my room all I was in was aa t-shirt and underwear... lol before I would never do that.

[Tristan]

Ahh the freedom of just not caring anymore

[JennX]

lmao the last 2 times I answered the door to my room all I was in was aa t-shirt and underwear... lol before I would never do that.

I can relate. I answered my front door to get pizza in a t-shirt and panties yesterday (honestly I just forgot to put shorts on)... the pizza guy nearly dropped my pie, after putting his eyes back in his head.

[Megan Rose]

Hi Calico,

For the first two weeks after surgery, I hadn't been able to see myself in a mirror.  When I moved to a different hotel, there was a full-length mirror right as I stepped out of the shower.  That first look brought me to tears, and nearly to my knees. 
I had never been able to look at myself before without blanking out that incongruent stuff there.  Now, I am beginning to feel a bit obsessive, spending a lot of time in front of mirrors, or even just enjoying how my clothes fit. 
It might be wierd if I'm still this way in a year.  But, right now, it's all good!

[calico]

Hi Calico,

For the first two weeks after surgery, I hadn't been able to see myself in a mirror.  When I moved to a different hotel, there was a full-length mirror right as I stepped out of the shower.  That first look brought me to tears, and nearly to my knees. 
I had never been able to look at myself before without blanking out that incongruent stuff there.  Now, I am beginning to feel a bit obsessive, spending a lot of time in front of mirrors, or even just enjoying how my clothes fit. 
It might be wierd if I'm still this way in a year.  But, right now, it's all good!

Exactly- I think are minds do something to keep ourselves some-what unaware (dont know if this best describes it) and then when we get the surgery its like a door unlocks and we start seeing so much more  I know if definately makes me so much happy