Has anyone else ever done this (Beware of crazy inside)

[jsmith22]

I used to (ha, still do) exactly this. It's hard not to. I'm attracted to girls, so it's always a toss up between "do I want to be you" or "do I want to date you".

[Theo]

I used to (ha, still do) exactly this. It's hard not to. I'm attracted to girls, so it's always a toss up between "do I want to be you" or "do I want to date you".

So much this, so much this... Maybe that explains why I pay attention to some very different types. 

[Shantel]

Well that is what I meant, nobody is saying to justify it yet for some reason the OP post read as justifying it to me... just saying that sounds a little insecure, because on the other hand lesbian guilt or something is not a reason to assume other trans women would be attracted to women either...

There wasn't anything like that there! One might say that it's probable that some gay males transition out of guilt to make their sexual proclivities appear more acceptable to the hetro orientation of the general population, however that would be just as offensive. Some comments are best not made!

[Joanna Dark]

I swear everything I say is taken the wrong way 

I knew exactly what you meant.

[Horizon]

Well that is what I meant, nobody is saying to justify it yet for some reason the OP post read as justifying it to me... just saying that sounds a little insecure, because on the other hand lesbian guilt or something is not a reason to assume other trans women would be attracted to women either...

I'm openly bi, and I'm more than happy to embrace those thoughts.  I'm just not sure I "liked" some girls for the right reasons.

Being trans, on the other hand, is something I'm still coming to terms with, so every little "pro" is a breakthrough for me.  :/

[Joanna Dark]

I didn't misunderstand you in the least

My mind must be in the gutter because I read that as "I didn't masturbate you in the least"!

[kyh]

My mind must be in the gutter because I read that as "I didn't masturbate you in the least"!

LOL xD how wonderful hahahaha

[PHXGiRL]

I don't know how I can express this rationally, so I'm just going to throw some paint at a canvas, and hope most of it sticks.  Just too many thoughts I need to vent 

Does anyone ever feel like they tried to....express them self through other girls?  I'm just now piecing together that the girls I had the largest crushes on are the ones I wanted to be the most/got the most jealous of.  I kind of feel like I saw them as the means to my personal expression, which might explain why I damn near took offense when they inevitably changed their style.  I know this sounds insane, but something just clicked in my head, and now, suddenly, everything in the world makes perfect sense to me.  It might also explain why I never cared to get to know these girls, or think about them intimately.  In RPGs, I would always roll a female character, and tell myself it was only to "stare at dat ass", or "experience a woman's perspective";  a few hours after the novelty would wear off, I would always find myself getting so much more immersed than I ever could with a male character.  In a way, I was using the customizable paper doll as a method of extending myself into a body with which I felt comfortable.

Maybe I'm just grasping for connections that aren't there, but usually, that gives me a noticeable sense of doubt in my gut.  This time, it's not there.  I feel "right" in calling myself a girl.

I hope at least some of that made sense 

Yep felt the same. I told myself for years that it's just a attraction thats why I feel that way. Played mind games in my head to try and make the feelings subside. I would only date girls with a particular look. I would always play as females on video games as well. Mortal Kombat you would see me playing as Princess Kitana or Jade the majority of the time.