It feels weird going in boy mode. I need to wear a sports bra, undershirt, and one of my boyfriend's XXL t-shirts to make sure my boobs don't show. I feel insecure walking around, feeling as if people are staring at me. I know that's irrational, because people probably don't give a crap about some random person with long hair, but it took a while for that feeling to subside. This was at the grocery store.
This feeling doesn't really happen at work, since my work clothes hide everything (including hair), and I get gendered male almost 100% of the time due to fairly masculine uniforms (drives me nuts but whatever), this just happens at public, non-work places.
That ball started rolling, I guess. Tomorrow is 100% girl-mode time at therapist