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Ever since I went out for the first time as a girl...

Started by Hideyoshi, April 15, 2013, 08:18:05 PM

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Hideyoshi

It feels weird going in boy mode.  I need to wear a sports bra, undershirt, and one of my boyfriend's XXL t-shirts to make sure my boobs don't show.  I feel insecure walking around, feeling as if people are staring at me.  I know that's irrational, because people probably don't give a crap about some random person with long hair, but it took a while for that feeling to subside.  This was at the grocery store.

This feeling doesn't really happen at work, since my work clothes hide everything (including hair), and I get gendered male almost 100% of the time due to fairly masculine uniforms (drives me nuts but whatever), this just happens at public, non-work places.

That ball started rolling, I guess.  Tomorrow is 100% girl-mode time at therapist
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MaidofOrleans

The more and more changes I have on HRT and the longer my hair gets I just feel awkward presenting male.
"For transpeople, using the right pronoun is NOT simply a 'political correctness' issue. It's core to the entire struggle transpeople go through. Using the wrong pronoun means 'I don't recognize you as who you are.' It means 'I think you're confused, delusional, or mentally I'll.'. It means 'you're not important enough for me to acknowledge your struggle.'"
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FrancisAnn

Just be yourself, be proud of yourself, you are becomming a nice girl & soon to become a woman.

Dress the way you feel & you will do just fine with your nesessary "therapist"

Have fun.
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Tristan

I agree that the further we get into transition the harder it is to do boy mode or even pass in it
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Ltl89

Even though insecurity sucks, this is actually a good thing.  If you are concerned that people will see you as a girl when you are trying to present male, that really is a testament to how well you pass.  I mean, if people can only see you as a women, isn't that a great sign?   I imagine it can be awkward, but try to see everything as a closer step to your ultimate goal.
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RosieD

Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 15, 2013, 09:58:41 PM
Dress the way you feel & you will do just fine with your nesessary "therapist"

Oh cackling like a mad thing about the quotes around therapist. Mine seems to believe that referring to her patients as "her girls" is not at all strange in the slightest.

Rosie.
Well that was fun! What's next?
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luna

Quote from: MaidofOrleans on April 15, 2013, 08:52:06 PM
The more and more changes I have on HRT and the longer my hair gets I just feel awkward presenting male.

If that's you in the picture, I can't imagine you ever presenting as male. :)


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MaidofOrleans

Quote from: luna on April 17, 2013, 07:24:36 PM
If that's you in the picture, I can't imagine you ever presenting as male. :)

Yes that is me and yes I do pull it off.
"For transpeople, using the right pronoun is NOT simply a 'political correctness' issue. It's core to the entire struggle transpeople go through. Using the wrong pronoun means 'I don't recognize you as who you are.' It means 'I think you're confused, delusional, or mentally I'll.'. It means 'you're not important enough for me to acknowledge your struggle.'"
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Rowan Rue

Last time I tried presenting as male was about two and a half month ago?  It felt really weird and I wouldn't even want to try now.  Fortunately being self employed has meant I didn't have to do the whole work as a boy thing.  That would have made me crazy.





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Rita

This is normal.  I feel the same way and is whats pushing me to FT girl mode.  My steps are light, ladylike but in boy mode I walk as if I have something to hide very heavily.
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Kathryn

Quote from: luna on April 17, 2013, 07:24:36 PM
If that's you in the picture, I can't imagine you ever presenting as male. :)

I thought the same thing Xp
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MaidofOrleans

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Quote from: Kathryn on April 18, 2013, 10:01:43 AM
I thought the same thing Xp
Shes So Pretty!

Thanks.

For those curious, this is my guy mode.

Please don't quote

*image removed*
"For transpeople, using the right pronoun is NOT simply a 'political correctness' issue. It's core to the entire struggle transpeople go through. Using the wrong pronoun means 'I don't recognize you as who you are.' It means 'I think you're confused, delusional, or mentally I'll.'. It means 'you're not important enough for me to acknowledge your struggle.'"
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ZoeM

Quote from: MaidofOrleans on April 18, 2013, 11:29:32 AM
Thanks.

For those curious, this is my guy mode.

Please don't quote
You look like a fourteen-year-old! I sorta want to ruffle your hair or something. :|
Don't lose who you are along the path to who you want to be.








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Kathryn

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MaidofOrleans

Ya customers ask why I'm not in school...

...middle school  ::)
"For transpeople, using the right pronoun is NOT simply a 'political correctness' issue. It's core to the entire struggle transpeople go through. Using the wrong pronoun means 'I don't recognize you as who you are.' It means 'I think you're confused, delusional, or mentally I'll.'. It means 'you're not important enough for me to acknowledge your struggle.'"
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Tristan

Quote from: MaidofOrleans on April 18, 2013, 02:09:59 PM
Ya customers ask why I'm not in school...

...middle school  ::)
Lol you do look awfully young
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