Hi!
I have introduced myself here in January, been reading the forums for much longer, I'm just a bit shy. Thankfully you all have been a great help, it's good to know we aren't alone with out GID and related issues.
So, I have some great news! I am somewhat proud of myself, I didn't believe I could ever get this far, I've told about my issues to my two most important friends and also my GP whom is a good friend I've known for over ten years. They were very supportive and surprisingly I'm not a good actress since I was told I am a bit effeminate. Wow! I thought I was doing ok hiding my GID away but I guess I must have left some clues.
Another step forward, after opening myself to my two closest friends, I have taken the decision, transitioning or not, I'll start HRT soon!!!
My lab results are a bit confusing, my testosterone levels are extremely low for a male and just above the average-maximum for a woman, yet sadly I had some fairly good development as a boy, I was somewhat ashamed to see a doctor about a few other problems at the time such as small penis, tiny disappearing testicles, no ejaculation, small but well developed breasts, extreme mood swings, migraine and some others symptoms I lost count. I will go through more exams this following week for a complete check-up before beginning HRT.
Haven't decided when nor if I'll eventually completely transition, my body dysphoria doesn't help any bit, I'll need to slowly and patiently build a lot of confidence and get myself prepared to go any further. I am OK with this, I understand it's perfectly normal and I also know I wont be a super model of any sorts but being 5'10 tall, 20 inch shoulders and a fairly large frame wont make it any easy to pass as a woman. Sadly I don't think HRT will help that much since I already have a "head start" of low testosterone and no significant muscles.
No longer I'm that suicidal depressive person of months ago, I'm still a bit nervous inside my shell but for the first time smiling and glancing at the outside world.
Without sounding somewhat futile, I'll try to post something in "Could I Pass One Day" thread soon.
Gaby
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