Hi!

I have introduced myself here in January, been reading the forums for much longer, I'm just a bit shy. Thankfully you all have been a great help, it's good to know we aren't alone with out GID and related issues.

So, I have some great news! I am somewhat proud of myself, I didn't believe I could ever get this far, I've told about my issues to my two most important friends and also my GP whom is a good friend I've known for over ten years. They were very supportive and surprisingly I'm not a good actress since I was told I am a bit effeminate. Wow! I thought I was doing ok hiding my GID away but I guess I must have left some clues.

Another step forward, after opening myself to my two closest friends, I have taken the decision, transitioning or not, I'll start HRT soon!!!

My lab results are a bit confusing, my testosterone levels are extremely low for a male and just above the average-maximum for a woman, yet sadly I had some fairly good development as a boy, I was somewhat ashamed to see a doctor about a few other problems at the time such as small penis, tiny disappearing testicles, no ejaculation, small but well developed breasts, extreme mood swings, migraine and some others symptoms I lost count. I will go through more exams this following week for a complete check-up before beginning HRT.

Haven't decided when nor if I'll eventually completely transition, my body dysphoria doesn't help any bit, I'll need to slowly and patiently build a lot of confidence and get myself prepared to go any further. I am OK with this, I understand it's perfectly normal and I also know I wont be a super model of any sorts but being 5'10 tall, 20 inch shoulders and a fairly large frame wont make it any easy to pass as a woman. Sadly I don't think HRT will help that much since I already have a "head start" of low testosterone and no significant muscles.

No longer I'm that suicidal depressive person of months ago, I'm still a bit nervous inside my shell but for the first time smiling and glancing at the outside world.

Without sounding somewhat futile, I'll try to post something in "Could I Pass One Day" thread soon.

Gaby

xx

You sound like you might be an xxy

I would say you should ask the doctor to test for mild or partial androgen insensitivity syndrome.

http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/books/NBK1429/

Good to see you coming out of your shell!

Hey Gaby,

Awesome news!  Don't worry too much about the overall future, just take the steps you know you want.  Things will fall into place in time. 

By the way, I second that comment about You possibly being XXY - in that case You would need to check for Your kariotype. As it has been already firmly settled for You, it is mainly informative, but at least my endo said that knowing which exactly kariotype You have - male/female or XXY might affect the choice of medications. And kariotype - at least as far as I understand - has no relation to Your hormones, it just describes what Your body is genetically.