I never felt like I was a girl...I just knew that being a man (or trying to be one, in my case) was just too painful to continue. I didn't even know being TS was an actual condition, I'd always thought that "those people" were just freaks who wanted to play girlie.
Stupid, I know...but that is all too common with things we don't understand...we make up reasons why people do what they do, and those reasons, because they're made by those who are NOT "in the arena" (with apologies to Teddy Roosevelt), have no status but TO BE stupid.
Once I realized that "to be a man" required (at least) an increase in T for me, and that T was a poison, so I tried non-prescription E...and I was like, "Oh. My. Gawd! Must have!!"
There is no way in hell I would ever go back to being a guy. Ever.