sometimes people dont understand they are just stubborn to see the truth
i cant know how my parents or at least my mom who knows excactly what im putting and going through to be who i am and most comfortable being. cant yet see me as her daughter
but im not complaining about that
i am proud of her for what she has gone through to accept me and not boot me out of her house and let the world deal with me
i am proud i can share with her what i realy feel every time i go through bad times
everytime my dyshporia is just about to put me down for good and on the last minute i stretch my hand all the way up and manage to catch the last piece of ground and push myself with my last energy[wich btw for me isnt a problem as im hyperactive and never run out of physical energy]
and push all the way up gain energy and continue to live with hope for one day becoming that amazing girl all my trans'ed up life made me
that girl who fights for trans rights in israel and all over the world
the one girl who did against all odds built up a life from nothing
the one whos gona love her boyfriend[be the one i will find one day]
i would not say its been easy and im not gona say its been hard
its been far beyond hard far beyond every other human's whos not trans
every other one's power to live through survive and have enofgh power to continue
i might still be before hrt or any other process but the fire burns in me
the fire to survive and not kill myself like some of us end up doing
I AM GOING TO SURVIVE no matter what im gona do whatever i need to do to have that life i desire to have
being a female living with a male
doing all i will be able to do to adopt a kid or 2 and call them my own children as if i would of impregnated with them and gave birth to them my own! by my own will i will have a daughter or even 2 daughters and i will watch them grow and love them unconditionaly just as i was on the brink of losing my unconditional love of my own parents! but they wont have to worry for losing it
no matter what becomes of them i will have children maybe not of my own but i will have people to love
i will become a student and i will become that workaholic game developer i always wanted to be and i will be respected by my co workers
people will be proud of me and one day will forget i ever was a boy! i am still young and all my life is still infront of me!
I AM GOING TO SURVIVE AND SHOW THE WORLD A GIRL WHO NEVER GIVES UP AND PUSHES FORWARD WITH HER LAST POWERS!!
