Hello to everyone.
I have been lurking for a few days and wanted to introduce myself. I 'think' I am M2F. My current therapists suggested very strongly, that I venture outside my comfort zone and get support from others that share similar life experiences. So, here I am. I have about a billion questions, but taking my time in asking them.
To describe me, you only need one word, FEAR. All my life I have been afraid, of what, only recently, has that become clear. I have hidden myself from everyone, even myself for so long, that I was terrified someone would see through my disguise. Little did I know that that someone would finally be me. It has been easy to hide, because I am attracted to women. Funny I have been called gay before, and little did they know that I do think that of myself, just not in the way that they thought. This was also a burden in that my true nature was easier to hide from myself, I couldn't be TG because I was attracted to women. Oh ye of limited experience.
I am married with 2 children, 24 and 19. not really children, but they are to me. My wife knows about my gender identity issues but the kids do not. I guess they do, children are smarter than us parents believe them to be, but I haven't officially come out and probably won't for awhile. I want to be certain, or more certain, of who I am before I burn that bridge. My wife is not happy, but she is supportive and she is more than I could ever hope. I fear losing her, but this has become more than both of us. If I do not pursue this then I will most assuredly cease to be. She has saved my live literally several times. So I feel guilty asking this of her now. But I also feel I have no choice.
I'll stop for now so this does not become a wall of text, but reserve the right to continue at any time.
Greetings all,
Christy.
