Thanks guys! I also found out recently just from journaling that having to have long hair, braces, hair permenetly off my face and chest, jaw adjustment, blonde my hair when it's long and losing the bit of fat on my belly to be alternate between girl and boy is like something required for me. Also thing for me is I can make fun off my girl side to me but without larisa, I would have a part of me missing and the girl in me is truly a blessing to me and has motivated me to take better care of myself for example. Im lucky and with my therapist, I can figure out this even deeper for myself. Up until last year, I wasnt ever aware of that I might be transgender or bigender. A certain friend kinda got me thinking indirectly.