Better late than never...

[NigellaG]

Hello everyone!
I am already - ugh - 58, and been pretending since I was 12 when I stood in front of a mirror in the most beautiful sparkly red dress. I've simply tried every device to avoid or confront what I am all these years. I've not been cured by getting dressed up, or the love of a woman or doing man stuff. I realised it was the man stuff that was the pretence. So here I am, less confused, but what to do?

[V M]

Hi Nigella 

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V M

[Ms. OBrien CVT]

Hi Nigella,

Welcome to our little family. Over 11223. That would be one heck of a family reunion.

Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams.  Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.

But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister.


Janet  )O(

[Jamie D]

Hello everyone!
I am already - ugh - 58, and been pretending since I was 12 when I stood in front of a mirror in the most beautiful sparkly red dress. I've simply tried every device to avoid or confront what I am all these years. I've not been cured by getting dressed up, or the love of a woman or doing man stuff. I realised it was the man stuff that was the pretence. So here I am, less confused, but what to do?

Nigella, I am almost you age.  And I have been aware of my sexual/gender issues since I was an young teen.  You are right, we find ways to cope, one way or another; or we figure it out and make the changes that bring us peace of mind; or we blow our brains out.

Needless to say, the last option is not only self-destructive, but it hurts the people we love and who love us.  That's what dealing with the dysphoria is all about.  Find if you can, a gender therapist, or at least one who understands GLBTQ issues.  Start with a guided introspection, and see where it goes.

BTW - Welcome to Susans!  I'm in SoCal, and it was sunny and warm today.

Over the past several years I have researched, been into therapy a couple of times, got prescribed HRT medications, and started to reconcile my mind with my body.