I have always been a patient person, but lately I just can't take it anymore.... I had a distinct plan for the rest of my life.
Not just transition but life in general... Everything I have worked for seems to get pushed back longer and longer or destroyed altogether..
To understand my plan I must first explain my last 10 years... I have been perfecting a power plant that is 100% environmentally Friendly. Just as efficient if not more then natural gas as clean as wind or solar. I have perfected it and just need $100,000 to build. Once my prototype would be built and I am set up on a feed and tariff with my local electric company I would be getting $112,976 a year. I was planning on selling the patent to G.E. or Siemens for 50,000,000 which is a fair price when you figure how much yearly savings electric companies would have not paying for gas, coal, or environmental fines ect each year.
My plan,
Start Gender Therapy
Get collections taken care of on my credit
Get loan to build power plant and house
by then I would be ready to start HRT
Quit current job and never have to work again
Money from Selling electric would pay for FFS/ Vocal training and surgery/ SRS ...ect
Sell patent to GE
Use money to build What My Ultimate goal is a Concert Hall
I was planning on the Concert hall to have different pay wages then any other company.....
I want to instead of paying a set wage to employees and me get even richer, I was going to set back 30% to band 10% to overhead and 60% to divide equally to all employees Anyways that was my dream that Is what I want to happen.......
Oh btw once this is all done I also plan to set up a charity to help transgendered SRS since I don't seem to fine any such charity organizations that would give a ->-bleeped-<- about us
Where I am so Far
In February I set up payments to all the collections which have been going good , but my last payment was supposed to come out last paycheck and a week before another collection agency called up and I had to set up payments with them which doesn't end until august.... Oh Forgot to mention I dropped half my tax check into paying collections and other half taking care of my Comcast internet bill for the next year... that way once I had everything paid off I would have an entire paycheck with no bills.... 3 weeks after that my mom moved back in and decided she could not handle local channels and netflix she had to have Cable TV turned back on she willing to pay for it.... I get it turned back on but we decided since Comcast was in my name and I had direct withdrawel that I would pay for it and she would pay $100 a month in rent... I haven't seen a dime of that... now all of the sudden instead of having my Comcast paid until next tax time it starts back up in August...
So now as soon as my last collection is paid Comcast gets started with payments again... now I don't have enough money for Therapy until I get full time at my job and get insurance... I know I am getting it but they just keep pushing back when they actually do give it to me....
As far as getting the loan I went to a few places they all suggested that I am on the right track and since I finally broke down and signed up for a credit card once I start using it and collections are all paid they think I should be able to find a loan officer that would work with me, but I would only be able to get a business loan or house loan I couldn't get both.... Ok no problem I get loan for power plant and then I would have enough to put a house on the property myself... They also suggested that there are grants out there and government loans I might be able to get....
Since it is in Rural area I called up USDA RURAL Development office they can't help but suggested Department of Energy so I called them up and she said they only deal with multi million dollar corporations for loans in the millions and she Sent me to some other places offering grants and loans and none of them I qualified for.....
I signed up for a credit card through my bank and they it would be here in a week. That was a month ago, Then I called them up 2 weeks ago and they said should be here this week... Then I called up last week and they said "Oh I looked into it and apparently your checking account was overdrawn so the credit card was never processed but I just put it through and I sent through again and it has been processed and you will have it within 5-10 days... ok usually when they say 5-10 figure 7 right? that was today no credit card.... Reason I am so impatient about credit card is I want to use them to buy DMB tickets that usually sell out fast and just happen to still have tickets for at the moment.
Just really pisses me off I feel I need to have started and everytime I seem to be working in the right direction something seems to push me in the opposite direction
Sometimes I feel like someone who has the potential to be one of the most Influential people of the 21st century may end up with slit wrists or self inflicted bullet hole before I get the chance to...
