I got home last night very late and I just crashed. I'm staying with a friend, I'll be here till I can find some work and get a place of my own. He's tried to find out where I am. He's sent me emails but I've been ignoring them. The bus ride was arduous to say the least. My back is killing me from all those hours sitting upright in those seats. Sat next to some nice people and one woman who figures me for trans, she had way too many questions, but they were tasteful at least. My parents know I'm back home but they've been divorced for a number of years and they have their own families and such so I didn't want to impose on them and they haven't seen me with the big implants and such.
I was only able to pack a few days worth of clothing so I'm hitting the goodwill today to find some tops that fit better and Monday my friend is taking me to a bra fitting so hopefully I can get more support than these flimsy sports bras are giving me. Riding alone in a bus for so long makes you think. I feel so stupid for being controlled so much that he changed my body in a way I didn't want. My GD isn't usually bad but since these erections it gets way worse. Luckily I wore a long skirt and was able to hide them while I was on the bus. I'd they continue I'll have to go see a doctor and find out why it's happening. Cialis doesn't change hormone levels as far as I know, but who knows what else he did to me.
Everyone has been so helpful, so if you have questions about, getting implants, or transitioning, just message me if anyone is too shy to ask on a forum. It's the least I can do.
Loves,
Nat
