Well, it's hard being stuck in limbo transition wise and I have complete empathy for your situation. My transition was on hold for many years due to my rare genetic disease that causes me to grow tumors in various organs. I don't know how I dealt with it, I just did. I knew if I wanted to live to transition there were things that had to be corrected first. I think part of my drive for fighting was so that I could get to the point where I could transition. Right now I'm on a two year break from scans and surgeries. My largest cancerous tumor is 1.1cm so they're just monitoring it periodically. I'm now on T, had my hysto, and have my doctor's ok to get my top done so I'm planning on that for Summer of next year.
When you're sick transition is still very possible. Don't give up on it but do your best not to dwell on it (which is hard sometimes, I know). Let your doctors help you understand exactly what you need to get done to be able to start hormones. Don't let them just blow it off. I'm not trying to second guess your doctor but I'm anemic and am supposed to take iron supplements but those red pills make it where I can't poop at all. I try to eat A LOT of iron rich foods and have even started to like liver and spinach at this point, lol. Make sure you take a vitamin c supplement too because it aids in your ability to absorb iron.
Is there any way you could get a second opinion about your care with this? I am having a hard time understanding why they're dead set on saying no way right now. As I said, I'm anemic. I also have cancer, a heart murmur, and am pre diabetic due to pancreatic cysts (what can I say...I'm the picture of health, lol) and as soon as my cancer surgeries were out of the way they started me on HRT. The anemia didn't even come into play. I'm a patient at the National Institute of Health and being studied through research by the American Cancer Society. My docs know what they're doing so that is why I am saying try to get it under control but also (if you're able) get a second opinion from another specialist.
