I came out in jan 2004 and that was the start of some life changing things. One of them was to face fears, the fear of telling frends, famelly and wat they might say. Frends were fine famely was adiferent matter, still dont tallk tomy sister or brother, mum just about tallking to me. Then the faer of wallking down the path to the car and what the nieghbours will say. three and half years on the nieghbours are fine and all tallk naw and think I am brave to have done what I have done.then the battle with the doctor and the PCT which brought on alot more things to deal whit but I got ther in the end. On top of all this I decided to learn to read and write which bought on a whole lot of different fears to deal whit,which was hard for me as because I had not long come out. This time I took on the Job center they did not whont me to take the course because of whot I was. It took me two mounths of phone calls and meetings to get onthe course but got there in the end which led me on to alot of other thing like taking a beauty therapy course at East Devon College which intern brought a whole lot of different problems one of which was prejudice whic I dealt with and naw allis fine. One of the best thigs that has come out of all this is that I have learnt a lot about my self and to deal with things in a different way. When I started the corse I was due to have my op which just added to stress and fears of whot people might say. It took a lot of inner strength to do this and I am now glad I have done this, as I siad, I have learnt a lot of lessons from all this, ones I dont regret. Arfter My op I thought it would be the end of things, but this just brings a whole lot of other issues to deal with. Befor the op I put up a brick wall to deal with thing just to protect my self from hurt arfter the op it was different, it was more about me as a woman and how to fit in with people, which took a lot of strength and a bit of time to get my head arownd. So if you think the op is the end of the problems you are wrong, it is the start of a whole new set. Life takes on awhole new meaning because you have achieved every thing you wont to once you get there , just remember, look in the mirorr because what you seewhen you wake up is still the same apart from you knowing you are different, but other people can not see this, so be prepared.
