Quote from: Julia (Apple-Whatever) on August 27, 2014, 10:58:46 AM
But being back to peeing, things have taken a different turn for me: I am in an office building with multiple stalls, and I can hear the noise of other women. Despiite sitting, I noticed that the main difference between me and them was the noise level. They tend to hit the water, yet I seem to be doing it more diagonally, hitting the toilets wall. I'm thinking about changing the sitting position a bit to replicate the noise.
This, is my biggest hangup for peeing in public at the moment. I usually will sit and wait until everyone else leaves, or flushing is going on so that no one will notice the sound is different... It's ridiculous. No one is listening but me. But it's super dysphoric for me to do it while people can hear. Can't wait for SRS.

As for standing - I will do it at home, usually when I am in a hurry. It used to make me feel bad/guilty when I did, but once I actually started presenting as female publicly, I clung to little things like this less. It's there - I hate it, I want it gone, but why not use it to save me time while it's here? At least that's how I justify it in my brain.