first step, after all these years but i need a leading hand

[mynameiskia69]

 had this all typed out once.. or mostly at least. But anyway this is a huge step me being here. Finally real input from real people I'll take all  the help ideas and support i can get. So im going to start with my story. I'm 19 and have been dressing up as a girl for like 15 years. Not a lot just every once in a while. My two best friends growing up were girls and everyone that hung out at my house were mainly girls till about middle school. But when i was little we'd play house, i was the mom. Wed have fashion shows, was always a girl. Some nights we'd dress up each other. Then as the years went by we stopped doing that but i didn't stop myself. I have some but not many clothes that are hidden away. That brings me to now. I Live with my girl friend and she doesn't know about all this. We've been together a year and a half now. Just recently I've been thinking about HRT to give me a more fem figure and things like that, so i could truly pull off being a woman but still be a man for her. But she doesn't like the idea of me even dressing up so theirs my dilemma. Any input or anything is very helpful. Idk for sure if this is something i want to do so i figured this post was a good start.

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[Devlyn]

Hi Kia, welcome to Susan's Place! I'm just south of Boston. Grab a comfy chair, hugs, Devlyn

[Jamie D]

Kia, first of all, welcome.

Second, cross-hormone therapy is not for cosmetics.  It sounds to me like you have identified as female, at least some of the time,  for much of your life.  You might consider talking with a gender therapist to help sort out you gender issues.

Quite a few of us here are, to one degree or another, genderfluid.  Worth thinking about.

[Devlyn]

I've removed the tags from this thread.

[Bookworm]

welcome

[A]

It's all your choice and your life in the end. Your girlfriend might leave you someday, whatever the reason, but your life will obviously follow you all your life. She shouldn't be a factor in your decisions. It's harsh, but if she doesn't like you transitioning but you determine it's the right thing for you to be happy, then she'll have to deal with it or leave. Too many people have made themselves unhappy by holding things inside because of the people around them. Don't add yourself to the lot of people who regret their life in ten years.