Right now, I'm changing my mind about the whole "normal" thing and starting to say that my main issue is patience. Apparently I really don't have much. Waiting for the changes of HRT is absolutely agonizing. Waking up every single morning and looking in the mirror and feeling like nothing whatsoever is different, while it seems like every single other person on this site is making such amazing progress.
And it's really an irrational thing, because things really are changing, and I know that eventually it will work out and that my own time to shine is still coming, but it seems impossible to internalize this simple truth, and I always end up spiraling into these awful depressive bouts because it just seems impossible.
I'm sure that this will stop being my main issue in a year or so, but for now these next few months are probably going to be really hellish for me because of how little patience I seem to have.