I actually have a roleplaying character who went through something similar. It is the reason my avatar is a Mincinno. Mara (my character) was born a female pokemon but when she was turned into a human hybrid something went wrong and turned her into a boy. He likes to dress like a girl, wearing mini-skirts over his pants and bright neon colors. Well, he starts falling for this guy but the other is straight. Nothing too hard of a crush, mostly an attraction as the other had saved his life before.
Well, there comes along this thing called the "Dream World" which is basically like a video game. You go into this chamber and fall asleep, but you control how your dream works. And so, you appear as you want to appear, which means that Mara looks as he would if he hadn't been changed into a boy and was still a girl. Mara and the boy he likes meet in the dream world, but because Mara now appears as a beautiful young woman, suddenly the other is attracted. Only, the boy doesn't realize that the girl he is attracted to is his quiet (around him anyway) slightly awkward friend Mara. They go on a few dates and Mara is so happy, because he finally gets to be with the person he cares for a lot. Only, he can't bring himself to tell the other who he really is, for fear that he will freak out and dissapear. So, he ends up staying in the Dream World more and more, almost as if he was addicted to it. Addicted to being what the other wanted, not who he really was.
..sorry if that made no sense whatsoever. I thought it went along with the conversation. I guess long story short, you are you. Dreaming and becoming someone else by switching bodies or something like that almost feels like..I don't know..