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What made you unhappy today? v3.0

Started by Adam (birkin), July 10, 2013, 04:23:50 PM

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Adam (birkin)

My dad is so lazy sometimes. He lets the dog out and doesn't bother to tie her up, and now she's lost because he didn't keep an eye on her. And all he said was "she's lived a long life, I'm going to get back to yard work." He doesn't even know how to do yard work...we bought this home and the lady left it BEAUTIFUL and he decides to dive in having no idea what he is doing and revamp the whole thing. It's just his new fixation, a new way to spend the time, he can mess up our yard but he can't go and look for our family dog of 14 years.

My mom and I looked and we can't find the dog. So who knows. She's old, can't walk hardly at all, is near blind yet somehow she got that far away.

I'm sick of my dad's piss poor attitude towards life. He's happy to criticize me for no reason, to mock my choice of degree program, etc etc but he can't even...God. I was telling Keaira about him last night and she said "I'm starting to wonder if your father can do anything right." And you know what? I am wondering too. The only accomplishment he has had is keeping his job for as long as he has, and even then, he's had to lie to people, fakes sick all the time, gets caught up in drama and tries to manipulate everyone. And he's always complaining about the job. He'd be out of it if he ever passed any job interviews.

I'm embarrassed and ashamed that he is my dad. He has not a single quality that I want to emulate.
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TheLance

Liam, if you ever need an ear or a shoulder, I gotcha pal :) don't hesitate to message me.
Once you've lost everything, you're free to do anything.
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DeeperThanSwords

The past few days, I've felt utterly awful.

I'm not quite sure why, but I don't think my SO saying he was struggling with my transition and positing that I may be better off financially if I moved out didn't help at all.

I feel like I'll never pass properly, as I keep getting called "ma'am" and "miss" by strangers.

I just want to stay in bed until I can get top surgery and hormones.
"Fear cuts deeper than swords."



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Constance

I thought I was supposed to have a date tonight. I got stood up instead.

And, the '80s "Prom" at my favorite cafe was cancelled and won't be happening.

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Sammy

I look in the mirror and the person I see is kinda OK.. I see potential there. Then I make a photo of me - the front shot, not shooting myself in the mirror and suddenly I look hideous :(.
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FTMDiaries

This is something that is often posted by MtFs as a positive/happy event (and rightly so, in their cases), but if you're on my side of the fence it is a negative/unhappy event. So...

My moobies are sore. :(





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Jenny07

I was told today again that my holidays I had planned for July have been denied.
I have to wait another 5 months! This is really starting to PMO big time!
Its been over a year now since I had any leave. Working 60-70 hours a week and I am beyond the breaking point.
>:(
So long and thanks for all the fish
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Shantel

Quote from: Jenny07 on July 11, 2013, 05:55:00 AM
I was told today again that my holidays I had planned for July have been denied.
I have to wait another 5 months! This is really starting to PMO big time!
Its been over a year now since I had any leave. Working 60-70 hours a week and I am beyond the breaking point.
>:(

That's cruel, what kind of sweatshop are you working for?
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TheLance

My gf told me she's tired of my issues. I've been trying to keep them to myself but some things I just can't. She said she wants me to be myself without all of the negative thoughts. I wish I could, but I need some form of progress to help me out. I dunno what to do.
Once you've lost everything, you're free to do anything.
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suzifrommd

My wife is stomping around the house stopping periodically to tell me how angry she is at me (for being in the house while the kids live here, which makes them unhappy). She keeps repeating that she can't stand the sight of me.

That much raw anger, really scares me.
Have you read my short story The Eve of Triumph?
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Shantel

Quote from: Lance on July 11, 2013, 11:57:38 AM
My gf told me she's tired of my issues. I've been trying to keep them to myself but some things I just can't. She said she wants me to be myself without all of the negative thoughts. I wish I could, but I need some form of progress to help me out. I dunno what to do.

((Hugs)) hang in there Lance, she's not you, doesn't live in your head or body, so wtf! Huh buddy?
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Shantel

Quote from: suzifrommd on July 11, 2013, 01:44:22 PM
My wife is stomping around the house stopping periodically to tell me how angry she is at me (for being in the house while the kids live here, which makes them unhappy). She keeps repeating that she can't stand the sight of me.

That much raw anger, really scares me.

((Hugs)) I can't comment sufficiently, it would get me banned for life!
I'm sad for you having to deal with this, I couldn't and wouldn't!
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Adam (birkin)

My waist is a 38. These jeans are a 38. I can't button them up. But all my other 38's fit. Motherf...
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Adam (birkin)

Quote from: Lance on July 11, 2013, 11:57:38 AM
My gf told me she's tired of my issues. I've been trying to keep them to myself but some things I just can't. She said she wants me to be myself without all of the negative thoughts. I wish I could, but I need some form of progress to help me out. I dunno what to do.

Oh and also...that's a path that I went down. Pretty much exactly. I was able to start T but my family wasn't supportive and I wasn't in a position to leave...so...I was stuck at a standstill and I was pretty negative. My gf at the time said the same thing yours did. We're no longer together, heh. I know how hard it is, but if there's nothing you can do to advance your transition at this time, try to focus on the positive things and try to keep your head up. Not just for your gf's sake and for the relationship, but for your own mental health as well. I paid an awfully high price for it and it took me a long time to get better, in retrospect I wish I had tried to enjoy the good things I had. I'm not saying it would be easy for either of us, but I have a lot of regrets over that time.

That being said though, there's a girl that I love now and could see myself spending my life with. I think she's a better fit for me than my ex was, in more ways than one.
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V M

Feeling tired, stiff and sore all day
The main things to remember in life are Love, Kindness, Understanding and Respect - Always make forward progress

Superficial fanny kissing friends are a dime a dozen, a TRUE FRIEND however is PRICELESS


- V M
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Shantel

Quote from: V M on July 11, 2013, 06:03:46 PM
Feeling tired, stiff and sore all day

From pounding the snot out of those guys that were molesting the girl?  :D ;D :laugh:
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Edge

It has only been one day since I cleaned my apartment and, in one day, it has managed to become a mess again.
One of my friends repeatedly calls me "dude." He has informed me that he keeps calling me it because he has to remind himself that I'm a guy. This is the same guy who asked me if my perception of being a guy was off in the same way that his perception of being something he's not is off and who responded to me being upset about this by saying, "It was just a question." So whenever he calls me "dude," I'm reminded that this guy thinks of me as female despite the fact that he has only known me while I've been living full time as a guy.
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V M

Quote from: Shantel on July 11, 2013, 06:22:22 PM
From pounding the snot out of those guys that were molesting the girl?  :D ;D :laugh:

LOL... It wasn't really much of a fight  :laugh:  It was more like shoving Butthead into Beavis, watching them get tangled up with each other awhile and then they ran away  :laugh:  I'm not sure, but I think maybe they might have bonked their heads together somehow  ::)
The main things to remember in life are Love, Kindness, Understanding and Respect - Always make forward progress

Superficial fanny kissing friends are a dime a dozen, a TRUE FRIEND however is PRICELESS


- V M
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Sammy

Quote from: V M on July 11, 2013, 08:58:39 PM
LOL... It wasn't really much of a fight  :laugh:  It was more like shoving Butthead into Beavis, watching them get tangled up with each other awhile and then they ran away  :laugh:  I'm not sure, but I think maybe they might have bonked their heads together somehow  ::)

I am pretty sure that would have like total zero effect on their future brain (in)-capability and IQ, given the total absence of both since birth. But maybe that will teach them some lesson and next time they will think twice before acting out... Pardon my possible political un-correctness, but I believe that such acts are sterning from the fact that nobody has ever PROPERLY and THOROUGHLY showed them that violence only begets violence, and then showed that AGAIN. Unfortunately, but there are cases when extraordinary situations require extraordinary, immediate and often violent response :(.
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