What made you unhappy today? v3.0

[Shantel]

My eyes are massively swollen, I can't stop sneezing, breathing sounds like someone blowing bubbles through a straw into a glass of milk and I hurt my tooth so I can only eat on one side of my mouth.

Guys, I think I need to be put out to pasture.

Poor baby, get well hon!

[King Malachite]

For some reason my mother let me oversleep and just went on to church.  I had to teach the kids today and wanted to go actually....but by the time I realized she had left me, it had been an hour into the service already.  Now I'm going to get fussed at for not going for three weeks in a row....even though the third time was out of my control.

[CalmRage]

Caught a cold.....feeling really woozy and dizzy....should i call a doctor?

[Jessica Merriman]

I really hate to be down a little today, but what made me unhappy is actually realizing the suicide rates and attempts within the TG community as some of the posts in this forum indicate. I did not know they were as high as they are. I wish some of them could have ridden on my EMS unit and Helicopter. In almost every call I responded to where the suicidal patient was still alive 8 out of 10 of them regretted what they had done when the realization of the finality hit them. It is not the answer. If anyone has these thoughts please PM me immediately. I am specially cross trained by clinical internships to talk to and evaluate suicidal people as well as provide first response care to mental health patients. I will respect privacy and keep a medic/patient confidentiality unless the urgency of the situation dictates further intervention. If you don't talk to me, PLEASE talk to someone else before planning or acting. I just don't want to see any more post's where someone is threatening, suddenly drops membership here, or is not responding when they usually do. Maybe it's the HRT kicking in, but it hurts when someone thinks they have nothing to live for because they do, like this family! Again, sorry to be so down today. 

[Shards]

Thanks, Jessica. I think that what you've said is incredibly important.

[izzy]

just thinking how selfish people really are.

[Adam (birkin)]

My mom broke her wrist. She fell about 4 feet. I guess they had to put her under and do surgery to reset the bones. She needs someone to watch her for 24 hours, so I'm not going into uni tomorrow. The problem is, I was already sick for two classes so I feel like I look like a liar/loser.

[FTMDiaries]

Went shopping at lunchtime for some gifts for my daughter, who has been hinting about what she wants for Xmas. Couldn't get anything on my list because none of it was in stock yet... but even so, I had a sour taste in my mouth throughout because she's being very hateful towards me at the moment and I resent spending my hard-earned cash on people who treat me badly.

[Shantel]

Caleb, it's ok because family always comes first regardless, so they'll have to get over it and make adjustments so it's admin's problem and not yours.

@FTM Diaries, she's just a teenager, they all act like they came from hell for awhile, she'll come around and realize what a twerp she has been to you.

[Kaitlin4475]

I'm in the military and I'm deploying today for a lil over 4 months, so no shaving my legs, or makeup.. Just a small emergency bag of feel good clothes, it's only 4 months though and not in a combat zone so I have nothing to complain about I guess, hopefully the disphoric is manageable.. So glad my wife is going with me

[Shantel]

I'm in the military and I'm deploying today for a lil over 4 months, so no shaving my legs, or makeup.. Just a small emergency bag of feel good clothes, it's only 4 months though and not in a combat zone so I have nothing to complain about I guess, hopefully the disphoric is manageable.. So glad my wife is going with me

Hang in there Kaitlin, we'll be interested in hearing how you're doing so check in with your family here!

[Jessica Merriman]

We got your "6" baby! Don't forget about us.

[King Malachite]

Called my driving instructor so I could get on with the lessons and get my drivers license so I can go straight into dispatching and ultimately start making money for top surgery, but noooo, she didn't pick up so I left a message.

With the current money I have now, I could just go ahead a book a trip to Anime Expo and cosplay.  That still kinda hurts that the money was originally going to go to treating myself after my lunatic ex girlfriend left me.  I was going to party it up there, but then I eventually got this little crazy thought in my head to save for top surgery first.  I said this story before but I'll say it again.

[Apples Mk.II]

I'm really close to posting in AAARGH! again. One moment or another I'm going to start venting.

I am having a rather bad streak of random bad things happening to me all the time, but... I can pass the economical difficulties, the shoulder pain that's gets worse every day (Good thing I've been saving my last prepaid session with my physiotherapist), but the ones relating to transition are the worse.

Today I was in another "bad day". Feeling like not coming out of home after looking in the mirror, make up screw ups, a lot of heat.... But a colleague from our unit gets on my nerves. After four years together, he's been on parental leave for five months, and now has a lot issues with using my name. And today he said it again, twice. He only notices when he looks back at me and sees long hair, boobs... "I mean, Noah. Sorry. ->-bleeped-<-, I swear I was not thinking". I said something like "I don't mind, but please, be careful when we we have visitors that have not met me before. I don't pass very well, but I don't like being outed to strangers.



Anyways, to top it I was doing grocery shopping after work, when somebody asks me if I have seen a particular brand of dish soap. Not a problem for me since I always buy in the same place and point it. After it he says "Gracias majo" (Thanks nice person)... 20 seconds late I notice that he used majo, not maja. The male gendered version adjective... And I practically said "Son of a..." If I had noticed earlir I would have corrected him. I spent the next 30 minutes in extra pissed-off mode (when I am wishing for somebody to grope me, just turn his testicles into purée and break a nose)

It's nice when they gender you correctly. Even nicer when the gender you despite the male clothing (sign that you are changing). But being misgendered by a stranger is one of the most painful ones.




PS: Not being able to actually get physically violent with all that missing testosterone also sucks major balls.

[Adam (birkin)]

I'm sorry Apple Sprout. *hugs* Try to remember that it's all temporary, those bad days will get fewer and farther between.

[Apples Mk.II]

I'm sorry Apple Sprout. *hugs* Try to remember that it's all temporary, those bad days will get fewer and farther between.

Thanks. That's what I hope, but things have been going downhill since July, thanks to the first time that I have to return money after the tax declaration (A nice farewell gift from my old employeer messing the salary, people believe I'm joking when I tell them the exact amount). No extra summer salary, I lost my economic cushion.... And well, I can't even buy meat. I'm scrounging for edible things all over the kitchen...  Pay Day is coming fairly late, and a lot of unexpected expenses have left me in even worse shape this month (lost wallet, broken lock... If the washing machine dies I'll kill myself) , Sure, I could take money out from my savings account (No way, that's the surgery money) or ask my parents for food... And I'd rather be hungry than having to crawl back to them after their insults.


C'mon, what's taking them so long? My workmates were already paid and I am still waiting.

[Danielle Emmalee]

Had a look at the Bible I was given when I was 10 by my parents.  Its a study bible, so it has interpretations, fake letters to advice columnists relating common teenage issues to the bible, christian perspectives on contemporary issues, and introductions to each chapter with trivia and summaries.  I came across one page that plainly said that AIDS is God's punishment for homosexuals.  I was just astonished.  Its no surprise that many people believe that homosexuality is a sin, or that such a Bible would interpret certain verses to say that it is, but to plainly say that AIDS is a gay disease in a BIBLE, I'm just speechless.

[Adam (birkin)]

Had a look at the Bible I was given when I was 10 by my parents.  Its a study bible, so it has interpretations, fake letters to advice columnists relating common teenage issues to the bible, christian perspectives on contemporary issues, and introductions to each chapter with trivia and summaries.  I came across one page that plainly said that AIDS is God's punishment for homosexuals.  I was just astonished.  Its no surprise that many people believe that homosexuality is a sin, or that such a Bible would interpret certain verses to say that it is, but to plainly say that AIDS is a gay disease in a BIBLE, I'm just speechless.

Really? (Almost) makes me wish I kept the study bibles we were given in school, just so I could see what kind of crap they wrote in there.

Yeah I was raised Catholic and I'm still pretty bitter about all the things I was led to believe. Would have saved me a ton of heartache!

[Danielle Emmalee]

Really? (Almost) makes me wish I kept the study bibles we were given in school, just so I could see what kind of crap they wrote in there.

Yeah I was raised Catholic and I'm still pretty bitter about all the things I was led to believe. Would have saved me a ton of heartache!

God must love lesbians since they have the lowest occurrence of HIV infection.

[Adam (birkin)]

God must love lesbians since they have the lowest occurrence of HIV infection.

True, but who doesn't love lesbians? (actually I've met some really annoying ones)