I read one of my delusional "Sara" posts just a few minutes ago. I'm trying to forget those few months and the entirety of May too, which was just about the worst month of the year, even though for much of it i felt better than now. It's rather personal.
Reminder to myself:
Stay away from your old posts if you don't want to feel ->-bleeped-<-ty
Another thing, which i have discussed with my therapist is that my meds dull out most emotions for me. Old me would really have wanted a relationship and once he made the first step, been motivated to get into a relationship, but now i am just antisocial in a nonviolent way, although old me (aka pre 2012 me) sometimes comes through instead of angry, broken, bitter cynical me.