What made you unhappy today? v3.0

[Devlyn]

If thats true, how come we are all still here.

You feel obligated to making me feel better? IDK.

[Three Stooges] For duty and humanity! [/Stooges]

[Amelia Pond]

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[KabitTarah]

 

Wow... type more per message LOL!

You feel obligated to making me feel better? IDK.

I hope your evening improves!!

[Amelia Pond]

Wow... type more per message LOL!

I hope your evening improves!!

https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,139969.msg1277712.html#msg1277712

Still not great but I'm feeling a little bit better, thanks.

[Jerri]

gosh amelia, i am also struggling with maintaining my relationship and balance of moving forward with expressing who i am. my wife feels I am hiding stuff but she is combative when i tell her that only trickle information. i know it is only feeding her furry but I have to pick and choose y battles. I have moved into the guest room and only hope it will help. she is very homophobic and i am not sure of the outcome but will continue to try anyway. my daughter is being very supportive and that just about killed her. i am going try a family therapist  to see if we can start building some common ground to keep our relationship intact. hope you can find a solution and i will keep you abreast of how this working out for me. but I am also in a very tough spot with my relationship and my transition
xo Jerri

[KabitTarah]

https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,139969.msg1277712.html#msg1277712

Still not great but I'm feeling a little bit better, thanks.

I'm glad!
I think I'm in a similar family situation... perhaps you're a lot like me - easy to love others, not necessarily that easy to love (plus... trans* ha ). Good luck with the family you have and I hope you find companionship later on, too!!!!

[Red Leicester]

Having to endure the soap opera.

[V M]

Jakey got hit by a truck and now he's gone.  God, I'm gonna miss coming home everyday to him. I feel like its my fault.

So sorry to hear about Jake     He seemed such a wonderful little guy

Hugs

[Adam (birkin)]

That's the third dog (I presume Jake is a dog) on Susan's that I've heard has died in the last week.  *hug*

[Jenny07]

Got absolutely poured upon on my Sunday bike ride. It was chucking down and flooding in places.
Not happy. Oh well still did 60k. We do need the rain though as it has been very dry and hot.

[of a sort]

Thanks y'all. Jake was my first and only dog. I never thought I would get so attached to a little crazy hyper critter as much as I have. Still crying and everywhere I look there is some reminder of him around the house. one time today when I did doze off for a few minutes, I woke and started to go look for him. I am glad my brother and his gf and daughter were here this morning, they helped me with him. They helped bury him. 

I just miss the little guy laying there next to me or bugging me for candy or wanting me to throw stuff for him to get.

[Jerri]

so sorry
I have many critters around here they as much family as the people,
best we can do remember the good as time passes and we can accept what is
Jerri

[Shantel]

Thanks y'all. Jake was my first and only dog. I never thought I would get so attached to a little crazy hyper critter as much as I have. Still crying and everywhere I look there is some reminder of him around the house. one time today when I did doze off for a few minutes, I woke and started to go look for him. I am glad my brother and his gf and daughter were here this morning, they helped me with him. They helped bury him. 

I just miss the little guy laying there next to me or bugging me for candy or wanting me to throw stuff for him to get.

It's so sad hon, hope you'll consider another pup in the near future, it will take away the pain, Jake would approve. My dog has been my best buddy, we have a regular routine starting at 0500 each day, he isn't going to let me be a lame ass and sleep in. Dogs are great companions, even for old broads. 

[Devlyn]

I put down a yellow lab in 2010, he was eleven. I would have driven around crying and listening to loud music, but I had to get home to the other yellow lab. He's nine now. Just like you, Shan, they've gotten me out of bed before 6 AM for over a decade! I love dogs. Hugs to everyone and their pets! Devlyn

[Night Haven]

Trying to decide whether this should go here or on the "What are you thinking?" thread. I suppose it's better suited to go here.

 
*Sigh* I just don't like talking, and even explaining that I don't want to speak is too much of an effort to put forth. I was going to say something about this when I'm out to everyone in the house, explaining that I don't like my voice and as such won't be bothering to speak as much as usual.

Thing is - even if I do get a deeper voice after T, I don't think I'll be that much more comfortable with speaking.
It's not comfortable, I don't feel right doing it... Perhaps because people always expect a verbal response to something; my voice doesn't carry no matter what volume I'm trying to give it (which I doubt will change on T, given that I don't plan to continue it for long, and I always seem to say the wrong thing so I doubt it'd be much better if I did get some more volume with that). It causes more pain to keep repeating myself and then give up than just not talk. Suppose why I like - hell, prefer - ASL, even though I don't know enough for a decent conversation.

*Sigh* Kind of odd, since I tend to babble anyway, and I have reign myself in online.


Edit: Also, misophobia being more of a little bastard than normal.

[Night Haven]

I put down a yellow lab in 2010, he was eleven. I would have driven around crying and listening to loud music, but I had to get home to the other yellow lab. He's nine now. Just like you, Shan, they've gotten me out of bed before 6 AM for over a decade! I love dogs. Hugs to everyone and their pets! Devlyn

Yeah, I had a yellow lab as a kid. Dogs are wonderful, it's a real loss when they finally go. Any pet, for that matter.

[Apples Mk.II]

Hair, as usual. I utterly loathe having to rely on wigs or extensions. No matter how much I try to care for it or take every possible hair loss solution, I will never recover the volume. Now that my hair is long, the loss of density in a tipilically male pattern is more visible than ever whenever I remove the extension.


I hate everything about being trans, about family genetics, about my family itself.


Happy ->-bleeped-<-*ng Birthday. I did not even now what day it was until they told me. Tomorrow it will be worse, since my family my try to call me. I don't think I will even pick the phone. I'm tired of trying to be something my body denies every second I breathe.

[kelly_aus]

I got deliberately misgendered at work last night by someone I work with..  It won't be happening again..

It's also exactly 6 months since I lost Alison.. I miss her.. 

[Shantel]

Hair, as usual. I utterly loathe having to rely on wigs or extensions. No matter how much I try to care for it or take every possible hair loss solution, I will never recover the volume. Now that my hair is long, the loss of density in a tipilically male pattern is more visible than ever whenever I remove the extension.


I hate everything about being trans, about family genetics, about my family itself.


Happy ->-bleeped-<-*ng Birthday. I did not even now what day it was until they told me. Tomorrow it will be worse, since my family my try to call me. I don't think I will even pick the phone. I'm tired of trying to be something my body denies every second I breathe.

Apple,
      You may think this is only your ->-bleeped-<-pile, guess agin sweetheart, we all suffer from the same things, you are not alone and we all care for you because you are us.

[Xhianil]

Life.