What made you unhappy today? v3.0

[Jill F]

Drove an hour in nasty traffic to get 3 hours of electro today, where she turned the machine up to "11".   The last hour was torture, as the numbing cream had worn off. I thought I'd be cleared in that time, but far from it, as she spent what seemed like forever in areas that aren't really that noticeable.  Then it took almost 2 hours in heavy traffic to get home to ice my face, when I noticed she left quite a few on my chin. 

6 hours of hell, $279, 5 gallons of gas and I still have a few stragglers on my chin. 

Guess I'm doing it yet again next week.  *le sigh*  When does it end?  6 laser sessions, 48 hours of electro and I still feel like she's playing whack-a-mole with my face.  It seems like it's been 99% gone for weeks now.

[King Malachite]

My disgusting brother acts like he can't aim at the toilet and leaving the mess there....I had to find out the hard way by feeling a wet patch on my shorts.  My mom asked me how do I know it's urine and not water.  I'm not going to try and prove it because in my mind, he is GUILTY until proven innocent.  I told him to clean that mess up and he did.....no resisting either.

[Amelia Pond]

A really good friend of mine is harming himself and wants to die and is afraid of getting help. I'm really worried about him and because we live far away from each other, there's not much that I can do, other than tell him how much I care about him.

I have another really good friend who has severe health problems and since I haven't heard from her in quite some time, I'm fearing the worst.

On top of it all, the fact that I'm getting divorced is hitting me really hard.

[MadeleineG]

Overnight forcast: -30^oC

[Adam (birkin)]

In the emotional closet now 

I had to say goodbye to Caleb at the airport and all I could do is stand there and cry. No more snuggling til he comes to visit again. I  really miss him.

I had to leave a piece of my heart behind again. I like a lot of things about home, but I need her too.

[Lauren5]

http://susans.org/wiki/Informed_consent

Looks like the only places to get that are NYC, Olympia, San Diego, and Seattle. NYC is a 15 minute flight, a transfer, and then another 2-3 hour flight. Can't say that's close.

[LordKAT]

I know there is one in Chicago and in Philly. There are ones not listed and you may have to search a bit for them.


Here is a place to start.

http://www.transgendermichigan.org/transpages/d.html

From their site:

Lansing

    Dr. Berry Saltman, 5135 S Pennsylvania, Lansing, MI, 517-887-5922.

    Kermith A. Scarlett, DO, 4902 S. Cedar St, Lansing, MI 48910, 517-394-6500.  "Dr. Scarlett has a number of TG patients and is very supportive, however he is not a hormone specialist.  You may want to consult with another doctor first, if you do not already have a hormone plan." --R.

[Shaina]

A really good friend of mine is harming himself and wants to die and is afraid of getting help. I'm really worried about him and because we live far away from each other, there's not much that I can do, other than tell him how much I care about him.

I have another really good friend who has severe health problems and since I haven't heard from her in quite some time, I'm fearing the worst.

On top of it all, the fact that I'm getting divorced is hitting me really hard.

Oh no Amy! I hope your friends are okay! But make sure you take care of yourself too! Goodness knows divorce is a difficult time...

[PaleDragoness]

Can't sleep and the sudden urge to cry after writing is hitting me hard, but the salty release just won't flow.

[Kristal]

Can't sleep and the sudden urge to cry after writing is hitting me hard, but the salty release just won't flow.

Here, this should help.

[PaleDragoness]

That actually made me smile and laugh a little bit. Kinda felt I should have watched it while on acid for some reason.

[Xhianil]

Took about 30 minutes to force myself outta bed today.

[Lauren5]

I know there is one in Chicago and in Philly. There are ones not listed and you may have to search a bit for them.
Here is a place to start.
http://www.transgendermichigan.org/transpages/d.html
From their site:
Lansing

    Dr. Berry Saltman, 5135 S Pennsylvania, Lansing, MI, 517-887-5922.

    Kermith A. Scarlett, DO, 4902 S. Cedar St, Lansing, MI 48910, 517-394-6500.  "Dr. Scarlett has a number of TG patients and is very supportive, however he is not a hormone specialist.  You may want to consult with another doctor first, if you do not already have a hormone plan." --R.

I have a hormone plan, I just need a letter. So if my psychaiatrist is unwilling to write a letter, I have two solid backups who I know who will take little time in getting there, and one who may or may not.

I had a bad dream last night.

[LordKAT]

Did you ask them about informed consent? That was the purpose of the list, informed consent clinics, no letter needed.

[LordKAT]

I went for help with my heating bills since I am basically not working. A month later they ask for my former name because social security don't know who I am even though my card and name has been changed for years.  GGRR, I hate people like this.

[Lauren5]

Did you ask them about informed consent? That was the purpose of the list, informed consent clinics, no letter needed.

That's what I meant about solid backups. I still thing going with the psychiatrist on campus is best, keeps the paper trail to a minimum, plus I know insurance covers this, for the ICCs, I have no idea if they will.

Waking up, looking in the mirror, looking at last night's pictures, it made me feel awful. And It's just compounding that I'm trying to find a safe place to get dressed for the vigil tonight.

[LordKAT]

That is fine, I was just replying to you asking about informed consent clinics. Use them or not.

[KabitTarah]

Worked on the road... with a raunchy install team. I was incredibly good, though quiet. There was another guy there who was pretty quiet, kept to himself. It wasn't that bad... but I wasn't on Susan's at all and it was a long day. Dysphoria was only moderate to low.

It's most difficult to use the bathroom (I'm always doing #2... though not really ).

[Apples Mk.II]

On top of all this, the grandparent's state has worsened and my family worries me,d espite them accusing me of being another cause on their depression just for the fact of being transgender and that they still can't accept it and are hurt and in pain. There is no way of accepting, but they won't go to therapy or see a shrink or anything.


I'm going to be out for a long time. Transition advancements have to be postponed. Currently I have to battle the hardest legal battle in my life. We found with the trade union that there is a huge ilegallity in my contract. if I get enough prood and work friends to testify, if I win they will be forced to hire me directly instead of through a client - enterprise relationship. After that comes stage 2: Suing for anxiety,  mobbing and discrimination. But the Stage 2 is useless if I am not working.

I have started the proof collection (the emails I still have access, time registries, my 60 page manual with photos taken by me... And signed papers detailing exactly which day I've been there every month.)

[Keaira]

I almost forgot. On the way to take Caleb back to the airport, he and Angie talked about the bottom surgery, which made me very dysphoric because angie doesnt want me to have any surģeries. -_-