What are you thinking? (Ver 5.0)

[Shantel]

I hope your consultation goes well, love handles are do hard to get rid of.

Thanks!

Especially when they have been there for years and years. It becomes what they call hard yellow fat like what gets stuck firmly down to a side of beef, not pretty I want it gone! In spite of the fact that this old bod will some day be a little heap of ashes that gets scattered in the Pacific I want to look nice while I'm here. 

[Apples Mk.II]

Today 's been Damn weird.

Ok, let's start with the morning. Nearly had a heart attack upon seeing my bank account after waking up and ran in guy mode to fix it. No make up, unshaven, etc (At least I put a bra)... Kinda ok about it. With the heatwave, I don't like to waste good girl's clothing sweating all the time.
Anyways, I have the meeting for the Napo Consortium ready (Napo is a mascot shared between several safety at work organisations), and the videoconference system up and running, when the phone starts ringing, and I am greeted by a weird mixture of english and italian. I can understand them, but they can't do the same... They are asking for Jorge. After that they as for Jordi, Giorgio... "Madam, we would like to talk with Jorge or XXXXX, the support technicians." And I was like..... WTF? "I'm Jorge, the helpdesk tech". I was close to saying "I'm a guy", but that was pretty much impossible (My legal name is in the conferencing documents). I was not exactly happy, and more like perplexed. I was not trying to do something with my voice. I was talking as usual, and particularly sore and in need of water.

I want to be happy about it, but every time something like this happens I blame the "mishap" in other thing. It's true that I have little resonance left and I am slightly higher in pitch than a normal male, but little else.


And well, for seconds... While going home I came across a guy that looked exactly like Mr Proper... Mr Proper in a stretch top and a mini pencil skirt. My first thought: [i["Mmmm.... A more open skirt would fit him/her much better... But damn, I want that skirt"[/i]

[Devlyn]

Thinking "that spaghetti isn't going to cook itself"

I'll be back shortly!

[LordKAT]

There is such a thing as too much Law and Order: Special Victims Unit.

[King Malachite]

Asked my dad if he called about the nutrition and weight classes the VA had to offer for the family and he said with the government shutdown, he doesn't know if they would be closed.  I wonder that too.

[Jamie D]

I am always amazed at how many truly good people are on this site.  I really wish the world was more like us.

[Keaira]

I still have no clue how in the world no one has asked me if I am transgender at work. I am passing just fine and I shouldnt look a gift horse in the mouth, but I think I look like crap. I have this facial hair that I want so badly to take care of, I've never worked on my voice and ... well, okay, my arms do look smaller.  I've waited so long for this animosity and now that I have it, it's surreal. Like experienceing my own personal episode of quantum leap. And it has hit me that when I chat with the women I work with, I can't fit in because I didnt have a lot of the same experiences. And I think I have that taken care of, as far as explaining why I am the way I am thanks to my Army Brat status.
but honestly, I feel like I am back to square one because I am pre-op. Now I am back to keeping this secret because if anyone finds out I was born male bodied.... you get the picture. Being trans just wears me out mentally and emotionally.

and I miss Caleb.

[Shantel]

I still have no clue how in the world no one has asked me if I am transgender at work. I am passing just fine and I shouldnt look a gift horse in the mouth, but I think I look like crap. I have this facial hair that I want so badly to take care of, I've never worked on my voice and ... well, okay, my arms do look smaller.  I've waited so long for this animosity and now that I have it, it's surreal. Like experienceing my own personal episode of quantum leap. And it has hit me that when I chat with the women I work with, I can't fit in because I didnt have a lot of the same experiences. And I think I have that taken care of, as far as explaining why I am the way I am thanks to my Army Brat status.
but honestly, I feel like I am back to square one because I am pre-op. Now I am back to keeping this secret because if anyone finds out I was born male bodied.... you get the picture. Being trans just wears me out mentally and emotionally.

and I miss Caleb.

Was thinking about you this AM before I got up for the day and was wondering how it's going for you. Must be nice to be back in paycheck land again though in spite of all else huh?

[Adam (birkin)]

I still have no clue how in the world no one has asked me if I am transgender at work. I am passing just fine and I shouldnt look a gift horse in the mouth, but I think I look like crap. I have this facial hair that I want so badly to take care of, I've never worked on my voice and ... well, okay, my arms do look smaller.  I've waited so long for this animosity and now that I have it, it's surreal. Like experienceing my own personal episode of quantum leap. And it has hit me that when I chat with the women I work with, I can't fit in because I didnt have a lot of the same experiences. And I think I have that taken care of, as far as explaining why I am the way I am thanks to my Army Brat status.
but honestly, I feel like I am back to square one because I am pre-op. Now I am back to keeping this secret because if anyone finds out I was born male bodied.... you get the picture. Being trans just wears me out mentally and emotionally.

and I miss Caleb.

There's a lot of diversity amongst women as well. It may not seem that way with the women at work talking about particular things, i.e. motherhood. Chances are there a lot of women who would enter those conversations and think "WTF? Why are we talking about this? Whaaat?" Lol. I mean, I can tell you a few profs hands down who would think talking about the stuff the women at your job do is weird.

And I miss you too. I was thinking about it last night actually. I hate that I can't just come down and see you whenever. Like spontaneously.

[DriftingCrow]

Oh my, I just got hit on. I hope I am not dressed too provocatively for this interview.

[King Malachite]

Oh my, I just got hit on. I hope I am not dressed too provocatively for this interview.

Good luck with your interview, man. 


I'm thinking about the guy I just met.  I can tell I'm a criminal justice graduate because when I walked up to his truck, I didn't stand directly in from of his side window in case he had a gun.  When he was reaching his hand down I got nervous and strted to anticipate it was a gun but he was actually getting change lol.

[Shantel]

Oh my, I just got hit on. I hope I am not dressed too provocatively for this interview.

Lol, not too surprising, guess you're stuck with a certain cuteness quotient. Aside from that good luck with the interview Henry, let's hear how it went!

[DriftingCrow]

Thanks! I got the job at the clinic, it's at a courthouse helping indigent people with guardianship petitions. I'll be starting tomorrow morning. I still have my job that pays at the firm, but it's good to get in the habit of doing pro bono work.

[DriftingCrow]

Good luck with your interview, man. 


I'm thinking about the guy I just met.  I can tell I'm a criminal justice graduate because when I walked up to his truck, I didn't stand directly in from of his side window in case he had a gun.  When he was reaching his hand down I got nervous and strted to anticipate it was a gun but he was actually getting change lol.

Reminds me of one of the final scenes in the movie "Crash". Don't get too paranoid (and watch that movie if you've never seen it).

[Shantel]

Thanks! I got the job at the clinic, it's at a courthouse helping indigent people with guardianship petitions. I'll be starting tomorrow morning. I still have my job that pays at the firm, but it's good to get in the habit of doing pro bono work.

Good for you, it always enhances the resume as well as the psychic pay back of good personal feelings about ones own self!

[Tossu-sama]

Why the heck international mail stuff has to be so damn complicated.

[Cassie 4 Ever!!!]

Man! I feel like a woman. Really I do! That is what I am thinking.

[Jessica Merriman]

I'm thinking I wish Kasihyna would teach me Cyrillic!

[Cassie 4 Ever!!!]

I'm thinking I wish Kasihyna would teach me Cyrillic!

I would love to. I know Serbian and in Serbian, we use dual alphabets. It can get confusing as obe letter looks like one letter in one alphabet, but that can also look like a letter from the other one which has a different sound. We have a Latin based as well as Cyrillic based Alphabet. I am still learning, I have only been studying for like 16ish months.

Right now what I am thinking is that I am very happy from the response I got from my father after I showed him a picture of me all dressed up for the first time. I showed him the same one that I currently have for my profile picture.

[Jessica Merriman]

You are gorgeous girl. Wish I looked just a thousandth as good as you! When I look in the mirror I see every boogy man from every scary movie I have ever seen. Mind if I PM you about the language thing?