Well, like on my last post I been having abit of problem with people falling in love with me, I think I got some of it under controll but theres still 2 people who specially troubles me..
1 is my exlove or what to call it, which abit compicated story cause we broke up but I still love him and I think he likes me but tecnically we can't be together as more than friend and such things because he has to suport his famely and I accept that
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few weeks after him telling me that I started to talk with another guy.
I only known him for a couple of weeks now, we just randomly chatted and decided to meet up. so I haven't known him for long 3 weeks or a month and now his totally in love with me.
I started noticing the second time I where at his place and he tried to kiss me and I freaked out and left. I kinda thought I didn't want to see him again but then we end up meeting up with him promising he wouldnt try to kiss me again.
his obviously gay and very in love, I tried not to let people being in love with me, I was sticky and he still think im smelling nice, I try not to compliment him and rather leave insults and his still want me around, I seach on google "
how to avoid people falling in love with you" but it dosent really help either.
So I know he wants kids to get marrige and he hate veginas and dont understand bisexuals even when he knows im one now. So in a time I decided to tell him right away:
"okay im trans which means I got a vegina, I cant get babyes, I dont want to get marrige, I f** people but I dont date, and I will leave the country as soon I get the chance"
I guess I hoped it would scare him away and bet he was in schock for 5 min but as I where to leave he kept saying.. "dont leave! dont leave" and I ended staying and seams it didnt work and he just even more in love.
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I dont know how to handle him, his very emotional, (if anyone read gravitation then think of suichi.) his easly gets happy by small things, then if I rejejct him something he easly get sad saying. "okay just tell me all in one you hate me and I will only be a friend for you" but I somehow dont know how that would be.
or when I said something as for normal friends he said. "im not your friend im someone who really likes you"
I just dont know what to do with him, I told him "your a sweet guy but dont f** your heart over me" he dosent seam to listen and writte strange things like. "I enjoy holding your hands and see when you smile"
I actually did enjoy that but I feel the whole thing is very wierd and im very confussed on what to say or do, and even if he would be with me I dont get what he expect?
im not a monogamyous person who can marrige and have children and all this stuff, and honestly I dont have bottom dyshoria, I like having sex with it, and I dont mind with who, but his gay and monogamyous so I dont see the point living without sex. I didnt plan it for that, I mean I got enough to deal with about my education and suchs things.
it seams as an dead end + I find it wierd people can fall in love for such a short time. I thought about maybe just breaking up the friendship and never see him again, but I dont know in general I dont like people loving me cause im not very good at handling those situations.
any advice?
