Okay this is going to be hard, but a necessary evil - if you dont think it couldnt happen to you, then i got news for you...
i need to tell my story and please dont worry or feel bad for me, instead feel glad for me because i survived...
Well in 2005, i havent had any HRT's or psychological evaluations yet, as a matter of fact i had a wonderful girlfriend that loved me very much - i felt comfortable enough to tell her that i was transgendered and was wanting to start transitioning... "OK" went very well to my surprise...
i did learn its one thing tell someone your a TG, its a completely different thing to show them - when i showed her, thats when all thing to crap and very quickly - after the break up i was heart broken and ashamed - so i did what most any dumb bitch would do - i went out and got drunk at a gay bar - everyone was happy and having a good time - i was dressed a bit girlish...
this handsome man pick up on me and we talk for hours - anyway he talked me into having sex with him at his hotel room... you all know routine...
anyway the first round went very well, i really liked it - the second round that same night he wanted to do the tie me up and have his his way with me thing, anyway the first round was good so i figured what the heck i'll try it...
after he handcuffed me to the bed, is when everything changed - he became very violent with me, and lit a cigarette started burning in different places on my body, i still have the scars on my legs and genitals...
after a time i got to a point where i took my mind to a happy place, he noticed i went into zombie mode and began beating me with his fist. i got to tell you, i came to a point where i knew i was going to die and was praying for it to come quickly to get it over with...
when i came too, still handcuffed i had to think very very hard to figure out if i was dead or alive. i really didnt know...
the cleaning lady found me the next morning and called the police, i was in the hospital for a day and the police had this attitude like it was my fault and i deserved it...
maybe i did and maybe i didnt - but this much i know, ladies always leave your selves a way out even on a date, till you know who you are dating...
This is something i always mention when i can to warn other women that the world isnt safe and and danger can always right around the corner - so with all this please ladies be careful with who you date and dont let your emotions force you to be eager to be with someone...
all in all i say i did very well in recovering physically and emotionally and are still alive to help other ladies be aware...
